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7th February 2011, 01:44 AM
So, where do I begin? Even though it's 2.00AM, I'll pretend it's still "today". To sum up the past couple of days...


Saturday, 5th February 2011

On Saturday I was pretty sleepy. I spent a lot of the day on Outlaw Star UK and watching an anime series called Monster. This would be the second time watching Monster. It's such a great anime though, it's been like a fresh experience. At 74 episodes in length (I think), it's not exactly a quick watch either, but the lack of filler episodes (and the filler episodes are great), the excellent character development and awesome soundtrack make this a winner.

Later on I was supposed to go to a Nintendo 3DS event. I've been staying at my parents' for the weekend and maybe the next couple of days. Normally I'd get a shower but since the shower here will either give you third-degree burns or hypothermia I decided on the bath. Little did I know that the clock had just stopped as I got into the bath. You may know how it is. Your perception of time changes greatly in a hot bath and when I found out the clock was slow by fifteen minutes, I yelled "Shit!!" and legged it to the train station. After getting dressed, of course.

It was raining cats and dogs. You can imagine how pissed off I was when the train left just as I arrived at the platform. I was drenched, and plodded back home. I felt bitter for a while as I'd been looking forward to this particular Nintendo event. I discovered I'd be able to go the following day though, so I breathed a sigh of relief and spent a while on Outlaw Star UK, before getting to bed and playing some Mario 64 and then watching more Monster on my Pandora.


Sunday, 6th February 2011

I didn't end up sleeping until gone 4.00AM. I had some real difficulty doing so. I had to get up quite early but had an adequate amount of sleep. Recently, my sister gave birth and I now have a niece. (Along with three nephews.) With my parents and one of my step-sisters, I paid my sister, her boyfriend, my nephew Xander and newborn niece Lilith a visit. On the way there I finished watching Monster on my Pandora. Amazing anime. We stayed for a good few hours and since it took a couple of hours to drive each way, by the time we approached our town's station it was nearly 6.00PM.

It was a short train journey to Manchester though. My step-sister came along, and we went to the 3DS event at 6.30PM. On the way there we noticed some Chinese New Year celebrations and figured we'd go and take a look after the event. The tour of the 3DS was very cool. At the start of the tour we watched an epically bad Ryu and Ken fight and I had my picture taken with them, followed by having to run through a room with zombies trying to grab at us, based on Resident Evil. I got a picture taken with those guys, too. There was a Chris Redfield and a Claire I think, but unfortunately they weren't in the picture.

Playing the 3DS was interesting. I played the new Street Fighter and my step-sister who wouldn't touch a console with a ten-foot pole was quite enjoying herself. (Goes to show what you miss out on by being ignorant towards games!) The 3D effect was convincing. A gimmick, yes, but definitely a convincing and worthwhile gimmick. I could have tried out the Resident Evil games or other titles, but we had far less time than I had anticipated, although the event overall lasted longer than I'd have thought. After this I tried taking some 3D pictures and had a go with Augmented Reality. I also tried to get a few pictures of the 3DS next to my Pandora, but they didn't seem entirely happy about this. A few pics...




It was soon after leaving the building that I realised what time it was, and there was no chance I was going to arrive back home in time to attend the Outlaw Star UK gaming chat I had scheduled. Since we'd barely eaten (my sister has a tendency to not offer any food or drink), we went to McDonald's. Unfortunately, whatever was going on to celebrate the Chinese New Year wasn't anymore. After this, my step-sister headed back to her home and I headed back to my parents'.

Something else a bit shit has happened. Actually, the only good thing is that it's the first (and hopefully only) time it's happened to me. Even with a small bite from McDonald's I was hungry, but my mother had prepared some dinner which I microwaved. I poured a glass of some cheapo supermarket diet Dr Pepper. (It tastes crap, but I didn't feel like water which I have quite a lot lately.) When I sat down at my computer to eat and browse Outlaw Star UK, the glass fell from my desk onto my plate, which was on my lap. My whole meal was swimming in this crappy Dr Pepper. It looked like watery, bubbly gravy. I became a hungry and pissed off mantis.

There we go. An essay. And this is the first time in a while I've thought my life was worth writing about. :D (Hence starting my journal now.) Hopefully it won't be boring in future entries. :P

7th February 2011, 01:55 AM
XD love the censoring mantis of censorship. I was just browsing the new posts section when I saw the words 'Mantis' and 'Inn towards the stars' on the same line. I instantly went like "O_O he finally started a journal! =D". Really appreciate you sharing the Nintendo 3ds pics compared to the open pandora! So glad we have an admin who's always so thoughtful :D!

7th February 2011, 01:59 AM
Heh, well, thanks. :D The 3DS is cool but I hate the glossy finish. Looks like Nintendo was trying to be very stylish with the gloss and the latest 3D trend. I don't like it when devices are fingerprint magnets. Otherwise, it's pretty awesome. The Open Pandora photos were really for others with Pandoras but I figured I'd include the photo here anyway.

7th February 2011, 04:13 PM
The 3DS does look very interesting... But I'm just waiting for the 3-D 'Love Connection' game... T.T Just... don't ask.

The thing about finger-print magnets.. yes... this is why I use this on my current DS
http://edge.shop.com/ccimg.shop.com/230000/237600/237614/products/-!Sonic%20The%20Hedgehog%20Flip%20And%20Play%20Ds%2 0Case%20New%20sealed--370987235.jpg
No sticky fingers for me :D

I have one problem with you, Mantis... Where's your beautiful face?! =O We must see it soon.. yes yes.. if not here, then in the photo thread!

7th February 2011, 04:25 PM
Yeah, I used a case like that for my iPod. Well, not Sonic anyway. XD The thing with the DS is that the original had a matte finish that was nice, and whilst the Lite did have a small amount of gloss it was subtle and fingerprints were hard to see. Ah, my face? I want to preserve my anonymity for a while. A few people here do know what I look like, but if they defy me I will slam my gavel down! Y'hear?! :P

7th February 2011, 04:42 PM
This is what Mantis looks like:

He's using a very clever disguise, and it's not even his face anyway.

8th February 2011, 11:18 AM
You got me, Baron. So today I'm doing what I call a "Jack Bauer". Staying up all day after an all-nighter. I'm as tired as hell, but I can do this. I need to fix my sleep pattern which has been so erratic lately. I'll have been awake for nearly 35 hours by the time I hope to sleep. I just hope I can last. Mountain Dew Energy has helped, but too much caffeine is no good, so plenty of water is always useful. :)

Dr. Killjoy
8th February 2011, 04:29 PM
Look on the bright side, at least you seem to be functioning =P Even with 6-7 hours of sleep every night, I need caffeine to keep going.

8th February 2011, 07:53 PM
I think the longest I stayed up was roughly 38 hours, trying to fix my sleeping pattern. When I finally went to bed, I overslept by 8 hours, missing my appointment anyway! :D

Mantis, sleep patterns are one of the hardest to fix. Just take it easy and try not to do something too dangerous :)

8th February 2011, 08:40 PM
Well, if by functioning you mean watching lots of episodes of 24 (now that's what you call doing a "Jack Bauer"), yeah, you're right. I had work I had to do today, and I've felt too tired to do it. It's 9.40PM and I've managed to survive. However, I did fall asleep sat on my chair for about an hour. I refused to lie on my bed and I didn't think I'd fall asleep on my chair but I did. XD Anyway, it was a small nap and probably helped. Now I'm tired and I'll get an early night. 10.30PM at the latest.

10th February 2011, 08:33 AM
I'm going to vent a little myself...

There's some bad and a little bit of good. It's always been my policy to save the best 'til the end. Last night I probably got about two hours' sleep. Insomnia can really catch you off-guard when it enters your life so suddenly. I've had problems with it in the past, and regardless it usually takes at least 30-60 minutes for me to sleep otherwise. I guess I can't call it insomnia now since it's not been happening for long. Funny thing is, it was only a little over a week ago when I was experiencing symptoms of hypersomnia. (Sleeping excessively.)

Truth be told, I've been switched medication lately. One I was on recently but stopped a couple of weeks ago is notorious for somnolence and hypersomnia. A new one I'm on now does have insomnia as a side-effect. I've been back at my parents' house for a week now to recuperate and sort my sleep/the hypersomnia symptoms out. I guess it kinda backfired when I then couldn't sleep at night, even after over 30 hours of being awake. I've not really had much to do here. The few friends I do have in my hometown are elsewhere in the country (uni etc.), so I've seldom gone out during this week. I've felt very fatigued and foggy-headed and found it difficult to do the little uni work I can do on this crappy computer.

Nearly 9.30AM, and I'm starting to get tired. I'm going to have to deal with it. I should be heading back to the university today which is the good part of my post. I've still got to tidy my dorm so I'll be spending at least an hour on that, and I hope should I not be too tired to get a bit of work done. Thursday and Friday are my lecture days, so I'll have missed today's but I hope to get an early night and hopefully properly sleep so I can get up on time for tomorrow's. Though I'm not great friends with my flatmates it'll be nice to have a little social contact. I did say I was going to vent, so you were warned! I think I'll get some porridge soon for breakfast.

10th February 2011, 11:25 AM

It may not look appetising, but it's really, really good stuff.

10th February 2011, 12:02 PM
Add a bit of sweetener, and perhaps a few blueberries and strawberries, and you've got yourself an excellent breakfast.

11th February 2011, 09:06 AM
I'm in a decent mood today. Probably because I got a very good night's rest last night and woke up in the morning, naturally. I have my Introduction to Narratology (game narratology) lecture later, so I look forward to that. I might go to the cinema this weekend, though since my flatmates are very, very picky (they have Asperger's), I'll probably go alone. I'm not sure what I'll see yet.

11th February 2011, 07:54 PM
My friends are picky too and usually don't want to go to the movies at all, except one of my friends who usually just drags me along to see one of the newly released movies. I have never gone alone before, but perhaps it may come to that because the one who drags me with him isn't in town anymore much, haha.

I hear that Green Hornet movie is ace though. ;3

18th February 2011, 11:24 PM
So, I've not really been on here much over the past five days or so. Not good for an admin, but I figured I needed to take a bit of time out and contemplate matters. I have a lot of threads to catch up on! Fortunately the forum hasn't gone up in flames. I was considering a moderator but that will happen eventually. :) I still haven't gone to the cinema. I ought to go this weekend at last. There isn't a great deal else to report right now. I've been thinking a lot about my degree, though.

I'm not even sure if the IT field was the right field for me in the first place. But I'm in the deep end now and there's no turning back. I should have gone with English, but I just went with what others told me I'm good at. I love computers, but I'm just not finding my course enjoyable. Maybe it's just me. I don't know. Either way, I'm looking at teaching English abroad when I graduate. It'd be a funny thing for a game design student to do, huh? The prerequisite is a degree. That's pretty much it, and you should be a native English speaker. I wouldn't mind teaching in China, Japan, or Taiwan.

That's my musings for now...

22nd February 2011, 08:12 PM
So, today I've gone to town to buy a few things. Most importantly, since this chair is so damn uncomfortable and makes me slouch a bit, I decided to get this...


Ta-daaa! Full leather executive wheelie chair! Fit for an admin, like me. :) Er, yeah, about the cost... £90, though I think people underestimate the importance of a good chair. It'll arrive here flat-packed on Thursday, so I'll need to spend a little time assembling it, though I'm sure it'll be easy.

Yeah, I spent a little more cash today, too. O_o I probably shouldn't have done, but I finally gave in and got Halo: Reach. I used to be a huge Halo fan back in the halcyon days of Halo, but ever since I was greatly disappointed by Halo 2, I've ended up purchasing each Halo game at least months after its release. I snapped up Halo: Reach for a reasonable price and played it for a couple of hours tonight. It's decent, but I prefer Halo 3 judging by what I've played so far. Like ODST, the characters in the story mode annoy me.

I've downloaded the PCSX2 emulator as I have chosen 24: The Game for PS2 for an assignment on game narratology. I'll work on that soon. I ought to scout my room for painkillers in a minute. I hate headaches. :sick: (You'd have to be pretty demented to like them I suppose.)

24th February 2011, 02:55 PM

These chairs are awesome. I spent the last few months of 2008 using one, and I was actually a productive person for a while.

24th February 2011, 05:39 PM
Mobile comfort...hoorah. 8)

3rd March 2011, 11:30 AM
Here I am, sat in this comfy executive chair. :) This is going to be a short entry, however. There isn't really much to say. Unfortunately, for the last couple of days I haven't really done much as for the most part I've been sick. I sure hope I'll get better for tomorrow as I've missed today's lectures as it is. Today I'll most likely work on a particular assignment, and I also want to do some work on the forums. There's only so much I can do though for now, since my web host is being uncooperative. Otherwise, I don't have many plans. Clean my bathroom and probably start work on producing a Halo multiplayer map.

Dr. Killjoy
3rd March 2011, 01:39 PM
Hope you get better soon, getting sick and missing lectures during the semester can really create problems.

Good to hear your chair came in though, I'm jealous =o

16th March 2011, 03:05 AM
I like the tilt functionality on the chair. I can lean back like a slob easily. :D Anyway...

Today I did a lot of work with YouTube. I got more episodes up on my channel and added a background (www.youtube.com/user/GeneStarwind09), but unfortunately the background may not fully show for those with a horizontal screen resolution of lower than 1400. This can be rectified by reducing the size of the elements. However, there's only so much space between the borders and the edge of the screen, so I'd be compromising the readability of the text and how much I can fit on. And I want that text there, because it's all about shameless self-promotion of this forum! XD

I've also fixed a bug on the forum that's been a problem for a long time. When members sent items to another member, the recipient was told that they sent themselves the item. That's resolved, and it will correctly say who the item was sent by. So now you can enjoy the peace of mind that sending greasy burgers to newcomers won't result in epic confusion. Now I'm heading to bed, but I look forward to possibly creating more achievements and ranks for the forum tomorrow, and also adding two new threads to the merchandise section: an Outlaw Star t-shirt I own, and a bootleg DVD that's very interesting.

Stay tuned!

28th May 2011, 12:32 AM
Long time, no update, old diary of mine. Over the past week I haven't posted nearly as much as I normally would. I'm usually not really one to go into the specifics of my life, but I've had some things to deal with lately. I actually feel pretty guilty about neglecting this site. There are so many things I have to do. I know I have the time to do them as well.

But I'm sure we all know how it is...

"On nights when I can't settle down no matter what,
I just want to throw anything and everything away.
Don't bitch and complain, just open the door, ya know.
I don't have time to quibble with you!"

I'll be more active soon enough, rest assured. I appreciate any posts other members make in the meantime as I don't want the community to come to a standstill. I'm not gone. I just need to figure out some things in my life for a little while, so I'll still pop by a bit.

7th September 2011, 06:56 PM
Well, the good news is that I've done some sweet things with the site since my last update, and whilst it probably wasn't destined to ever have a constant flow of new member registrations, some pretty awesome ones have emerged. And I shall continue this journey. I could do with continuing the site tour tonight which I put off a little. (To be fair, it's often not possible for me to speak loudly due to my parents' irregular sleeping hours, but I have procrastinated a bit too.)

I do, however, feel like chilling out a little by playing Alan Wake. Yes, that's right. Scary games help me chill out. There aren't many forms of escapism that are comparable to having maniacs chasing you with the intent of hacking you to bits, and I like that. Whilst Alan Wake isn't the scariest game around, it does have a few edge-of-seat moments and horror games help me feel alive. As Tony Almeida from my favourite American TV show 24 once said: "Some people are more comfortable in hell."

And heck, I sure do feel like some escapism after spending a whole day travelling across the country for a simple goddamn check-up. Because of England's NHS being so anal about trivial matters, you need to go through some stupid procedures to get yourself "transferred" from one location to another, which is problematic if you're returning to your home from university. And it's my uni's town I had to travel to today.

Since I had to wait for my train I figured I'd visit a few charity shops to see if I could hunt some decent retro game bargains. I found nothing of interest. Instead, I returned home with a Yorkie bar and a 2L bottle of Dr. Pepper. Also, the weather was miserable today, but that's hardly groundbreaking news. I know what is. My web host sucks. Oh wait.

So you'll be waiting a while for the wiki since they can't be arsed with some simple post-year-2000 server software upgrades which are required for the wiki I had in mind.

Edit: Wait, this is a time to celebrate! My 2000th post, sweeeet! Follow in my footsteps, guys. ;-)

29th September 2011, 01:52 AM
Alright, so, as I've explained elsewhere I recently upgraded my computer a little. From 3GB of RAM to 8GB. It was supposed to be 11GB as I was going to use the 3GB of RAM with the 8GB, but they don't play nice together. So 8GB will do for now. :) I've got the special green edition of the NVIDIA GTX 460, which uses less juice but has a couple of disadvantages. For instance, the standard GTX 460, if memory serves, has two DVI ports. Mine only has one. It does have a HDMI port though as you'd expect. That brings me to today's news; a purchase I recently made. And what a purchase.

For £250 I've managed to get myself three 22" 3D Samsung monitors (I love Samsung) and an NVIDIA 3D graphics kit with glasses, which my card fully supports. These monitors only have one DVI port. Now, what I said about my graphics card. I can convert HDMI to DVI with a cable, but since I only have one NVIDIA graphics card my PC will only be able to handle two of these monitors at once. As for the third one, I don't know what I'm going to do with it. Maybe wall mount it and use it with my Xbox 360. The Xbox 360 supports some 3D games and my soon-to-be-possessed NVIDIA glasses should work with it. I should be able to again use a cable to convert the X360's HDMI to DVI and then use the AV port for sound.

Or maybe I will wait until I can afford a custom rig so I can have two graphics cards and use four screens at once. In fact, as it is I can use three screens if you count my 7" Samsung USB monitor. :D

Pics of the three monitors and the glasses provided by the seller. He has a sweet setup:






Lizard not included, sadly...

Heresiarch Grimm
29th September 2011, 02:58 PM
Lizard's installing stuff for your PC.

Or browsing for lizard porn.

Either way, that looks like an amazing setup. Pity about your RAM though. Atleast you've got 8!

30th September 2011, 03:41 AM
Well, tonight I first of all tested out a Wii emulator (also emulates GameCube) called Dolphin. I was impressed and I look forward to playing GameCube and Wii games in HD, though not every game is well supported. I also downloaded the Battlefield 3 beta. I had to wait half an hour to be able to actually connect to a server, which I suppose is to be expected, but let's face it. It isn't a beta. That's just a marketing ploy to get people rushing to play it. It's out in a few weeks. Since they have to get the game out for production and have it shipped to retailers, the game's already done.

As for the game itself, let me say first that the only Battlefield game I've played is Battlefield 1943. I thoroughly enjoyed it. It was a small game as it only had a few maps, but they had me hooked for ages. Awesome vehicles, decent weapons. Sure, you had campers, but unlike CoD it was often a lot easier to outsmart them, and bullets weren't quite as heat-seeking. I'd only watched one small video of BF3 so I didn't know what to expect. I was disappointed. It felt exactly like MW2. Constantly picked off by people with annoying gamertags like XxSniPEr1337357xX who have all the best weapons that you will only get by playing and increasing rank.

In 1943, this wasn't an issue if memory serves. You could get rank increases but they didn't affect anything except your personal profile. Honestly, it just feels like this whole MW3/BF3 thing is a pissing match between the two companies. I don't know which game series imitated which first (BF or CoD) but damn, seriously, I got bored. The only game I can see myself buying at launch this year is Skyrim. I'm going to call it a night now. That's my venting over. :)

2nd October 2011, 03:52 AM
Well, tonight I forayed into the world of PHP, and made a code edit on the forum which took the whole site down. Er, oops. :P I was talking to Dr. Killjoy at the time it went down and was sure it was a coincidence that as soon as I uploaded the edit, bam, crashed like the Hindenburg. Slightly abridged version of our chat.

Mantis: Outlaw Star UK seems to be down.
Dr. Killjoy: asdfasdfasdf
Mantis: Do you experience the same problem?
Dr. Killjoy: 'fraid so =(
Mantis: Hmm, weird.
Mantis: It was just after I uploaded a code edit too.
Mantis: But that couldn't have caused the problem.
Mantis: No way.
Dr. Killjoy: i'd say there's probably a connec-oh?
Mantis: It was just an edit to the Tenrei post limit code.
Mantis: This is my first time working with PHP... ever.
Mantis: And my first time coding in a damn while. But the edit is very simple anyway.
Mantis: The difference is that it warns the member on the ninth post. Or whatever I set the max as minus one.
Mantis: Which is currently ten.
Dr. Killjoy: right
Dr. Killjoy: i haven't done much with php, but i don't see anything here that should break the forum
Mantis: Exactly. Which is crazy really.
Mantis: Because it was the second I uploaded it.
Mantis: Boom.
Mantis: Ajax Chat went crazy.
Dr. Killjoy: i guess all i can say is
Dr. Killjoy: upload the old version and see if that works
Mantis: I can't even connect to FTP.
Dr. Killjoy: asdfasdfasdf
Mantis: Ah, just under two months away until I'll make the move to the American server.
Dr. Killjoy: uhmmmmmm
Dr. Killjoy: SSH IN
Mantis: Unlimited disk space, bandwidth, and no restrictions. (Within reason, but the Dreamhost guys are really helpful.)
Mantis: Lmao, SSH.
Dr. Killjoy: Outlaw Star UK on an american server
Mantis: They had PHP4 installed until I asked them to change it.
Dr. Killjoy: now that's irony
Mantis: PHP5 was released in 2004 or something.
Mantis: And yeah, it is. XD
Dr. Killjoy: ...wow
Mantis: But I've gotta be economic.
Dr. Killjoy: right
Mantis: I'm already paying for this American hosting.
Mantis: Even though I seldom use it. Well, now I will.
Mantis: I'll let you know when it's back up and if the code actually works...
Dr. Killjoy: alright, good luck
Mantis: Thanks
Dr. Killjoy: i know how much of a pain in the ass these bugs can be D=
Mantis: Yep. >_< More so than me, though I should start learning how to code again.
Mantis: Dammit, definitely my bad coding.
Mantis: Replacing my edit with the original version fixed it.
Mantis: And then after disabling it and re-upping my edit, a wild MISSINGNO appeared.
Mantis: Right...
Mantis: Will PM the dev.
Dr. Killjoy: Mantis: It was just after I uploaded a code edit too.
- Mantis: But that couldn't have caused the problem.
- Mantis: No way.
Dr. Killjoy: =P
Mantis: Hm, now that's a funny coincidence.
Mantis: The ID of the Tenrei forum is the same as the episode number.

tl;dr version:

It wasn't me... honest.


And now I've wasted so much time tonight, and I have to be up early to get stuff ready and collect my 3D gear. I'm going to do an all-nighter. I sleep like a baby when I finally do fall asleep. It'd take a foghorn to wake me up. So I have no choice. And woo-hoo, I have a spare can of No Fear Energy! Advertisements totally don't affect me! (http://www.outlawstar.co.uk/forums/games.php?action=scores&gid=30) I'm so tursty (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j4o2PDwKdcA).

I have some new plans for how things are going to work on this forum too. I'll fill you in on that soon enough.

7th October 2011, 06:31 AM

Happy Serious Birthday, Mantis!

7th October 2011, 01:08 PM
Thanks, steak is serious business. I just wish it wasn't pissing it down, especially given how it was blazing hot less than a week ago.

9th October 2011, 09:26 AM
Well, the birthday was decent. And I've extremely recently accomplished an all-nighter. I was meaning to sleep about four hours ago but I feel that gone past 6.00AM, is there really any benefit to going to sleep anyway? It's only going to screw with your body clock even more than the previous night. I figured I'd watch a few episodes of Outlaw Star and see if I can last it without falling asleep. Well, obviously, I won that battle. I can feel the tiredness creeping in however.

My main strategies to staying awake are drinking a lot of water (can't sleep if you need to pee a lot, huh?) and if very tired, playing some difficult FPS. However, today I was meant to finish my Outlaw Star 2 article. If I manage to do that during an all-dayer and make it pretty good then that's quite the accomplishment, especially given the whole problem of Japanese translations, some of which Google really isn't helping with. So I really can't be too confident about producing the article in time to meet my own personal deadline.

Urge to sleep is high, but I've gotta be strong. XD

9th October 2011, 03:49 PM
Uhg, I missed your birthday?! Blasphemy! ...and happy belated birthday, O Green One. :P

9th October 2011, 04:38 PM
Thanks. Well, I allowed myself a small nap, which was a big mistake because it turned into a little more than that. Fortunately, it was far fewer hours than I'd normally sleep for, which should even things out a little. I think I'm going to get some food and watch an episode of Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood (I did decide I'd watch until episode twenty before choosing whether I like it enough to continue) and then continuing my research. Indeed, there are some things you might find interesting.

Thanks to the help of Somasol, we were able to make a connection between the Sword of Wind and a place in the Toward Stars universe that is never actually mentioned in the anime, if memory serves. (And it bloody well should with the amount of times I've watched it.) I also have you to thank since I've been using your map as a reference. I've also created a more aesthetically-pleasing version—hope you won't mind! You'll get full credit in the article, naturally.

11th October 2011, 03:53 PM
Well, I've come to the conclusion that naps simply don't work for me. After staying up until about 11.45AM since I promised I'd have the OLS2 article ready yesterday (working on it for a lot of this with a couple of FMA episodes to keep me awake) I decided I had no choice but to get a nap. Apparently, any longer than thirty minutes and you'll be very groggy, so it's best to keep naps short. Since I knew that despite my tiredness, it'd take me a while to fall asleep (it always does) so I set my alarm for 12.30PM.

My alarm was pretty loud. But I slept through it for over three hours. Yup, that's right. I did get up at that point to continue my work, but fell asleep on my chair. x_x Well, I guess having four hours of sleep isn't bad; it should help even things out a little since I usually need nine to be well rested. But the guide was right; I'm extremely groggy. Well, I intend to rectify this and finish the job. I finished the translation and map work and my next task is gathering information about the Retaliation sequel.

I'm glad I lasted beyond daybreak (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LiWHKPi5QQk), but I think it's about time to head out and buy a couple of energy (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jB0Cfa6xURY) drinks. I fear (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fdzp11zsRvI) that I will crash (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pIlk_bL_Uyg), but come on (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YaTwOdrp0bY), they should tide me over until I satisfy my desire (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AJzWJ1DA9Jc). If only I had some of this elixir beforehand which would have kept me feeling grand (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uisYhsXxHdE) through the night (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RT__tPTEVVA), and perhaps helped me survive another day (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I5U9LreJg3g). There is some uneasiness (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WWGYV55D8hI) and tension (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aBbMFYnnhDs) from this expectation (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hr7k1kIHxxo) to write the article as a couple have been asking about it, and I sure wish I had the freedom (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RjIXzqD3PX0) to be a total slacker sometimes. Let's go! (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oc11n2yjHTY)

(I can't believe I just did that. If I had uploaded OST 2 by now, I could have made it even geekier.)

11th October 2011, 04:30 PM

That was brilliant.

19th October 2011, 02:15 PM
Well, my sleep's been f*****d up beyond comprehension for the past few days. As such, I've put off a lot of tasks I should have been working on because I've either felt too tired, or too irritable to spend considerable time on anything. Fortunately, I think I might be on a path towards improvement. For a lack of better words, I'm so tired of lying in bed for hours unable to sleep despite being very tired during the day. Gotta envy those who claim to be able to fall asleep within ten minutes or so.

'Suppose I'll see what I can get done today, aside from a bit of Crayon Physics Deluxe and TF2. :)

19th October 2011, 04:40 PM
I understand the sleep feeling, but I finally got my butt into gear on that. It was definitely needed. I'm glad to hear that your on track. I need to work on that myself instead of letting stuff pile up, mostly with school, waiting till the day before is starting to bite me in the a**. And mantis you seem like you got a lot on your plate. Running this site, doing your projects, and your personal stuffs. Its good just to take a break and give yourself some "me" time, or time to relax. Definitely refreshes/recharges me. And on a good night I can fall asleep in 5mins haha, but most nights that's not the case XD

20th October 2011, 07:42 PM
Well, thanks for the nice words, but alas, so much for my sleep issues coming to an end! Although admittedly in part due to my own will, last night (this morning I suppose) I stayed up until around 6.00AM, since I decided I'd stay up until I'm tired as not doing so results in lying in bed bored out of my skull for hours. Except the same happened and it wasn't far off 9.00AM when I actually fell asleep. I woke up around 5.00PM. Well, more like 3.00PM but I kept drifting in and out of sleep for a couple of hours. Marvellous. :P

Heresiarch Grimm
20th October 2011, 09:11 PM
Get checked by a GP. They might help sort this sleep thing out.

Last thing we need is a Mantis dying because he couldn't molt properly.

9th January 2012, 01:52 AM
Some good news is that my sleep is a lot better now. Some even better news is that the site is back as you all well know, but I'm going to add a lot of kickass features to it soon.

But the best news of all?! I finally beat Lloyd at that goddamn 7up Pinball game in the Arcade! (Link opens scores page.) (http://www.outlawstar.co.uk/forums/games.php?action=scores&gid=3&page=1) I've been trying to beat his score for months now, and the game sucks because of the horrible collision detection. Best part about it? This music was playing when I got the high score.


Yes, this high score is worthy of a journal entry. Oh, the euphoria from beating that game that has cheated me for so long now. I'm sorry Lloyd, but if you're as stubborn as me you're about to enter a world of pain.

9th January 2012, 03:26 AM
hehe, check again.

9th January 2012, 09:20 AM
There's no way you attained that score in an hour of a sleep-deprived night. Once you provide a video I'll take my hat off and declare you the victor. Until then, I call hax.

9th January 2012, 10:26 AM
I stopped playing that shitty-ass game a long time ago.

This shitty-ass game however, deserves a special mention:


9th January 2012, 10:43 AM
Yay, a new Shite On Toast video. This one is particularly shitty. I certainly couldn't play it for longer than ten minutes without becoming bored shitless. (Probably much less than that.) It's a shame the gameplay design was so crud because the game actually looks pretty presentable.

9th January 2012, 05:43 PM
Nope, I didn't hack it. You can see all the wong i spent. I think that's kind of low of you to accuse me of cheating. I've played the game 250 times according to my stats.

9th January 2012, 06:52 PM
~250 is the total for everybody. Most of them are from myself. (Probably at least 150.) My accusation was only semi-serious, but it isn't unfounded. On a very popular online arcade site, with 7up Pinball being one of the first games on the site, the top score was around 75,000,000. That was two and a half years ago, and people play games on this site regularly. I can guarantee it has been played many times. So, in two and a half years the score of a game that has been played many times has been beaten by ten million by somebody in the space of one hour. Despite our friendship, I'd be a fool to not have some suspicions given what I explained.

Yet, I do believe your score is very much attainable. Just very difficult to attain. I dislike the fact the game is often based on luck, and that's an indisputable fact. The ball frequently passes through the flippers. It doesn't matter how good you are when most failures are the result of poor programming. If you want to give me 100% assurance, record a playthrough video or stream via Livestream/etc. If you were able to get such an incredible score in such a short amount of time this shouldn't be a problem for you. You talk about FPS issues from recording the screen? Not a problem. Use your webcam. That would be perfect for a streaming site.

9th January 2012, 08:06 PM
Uh-oh, I think there's an exploit in there somewhere.

This is just a wild accusation (regarding piss-poor programming) I'm throwing down, but not a completely irrational one. Not that I give a shit either way though; I hate that poxy game with a passion.

10th January 2012, 03:05 AM
I don't even know how to hack the game :/ I doubt I'll be able to get such a score again very easily, it came down to a lot of luck.

10th January 2012, 08:21 AM
But when I attained a score of around 24,000,000, it was very shortly afterwards (less than half an hour?) that you got about 25,000,000. I can remember this. Surely you'd be able to at least attain above 30,000,000 over a live stream in a short amount of time if you could get 80,000,000 in an hour?

10th January 2012, 12:05 PM
After Lloyd shared his screen with me, I've decided to drop all suspicions. It was nothing personal. Just an admin's duty and I'd probably request the same of anybody else. I can actually usually find out if someone's cheating with enough deep digging in the data stored on the server. Unsurprisingly, Lloyd did as well as I usually do during my plays; not very well compared to the high scores. He has the reflexes and the skill, but the game's terrible programming is everybody's downfall when playing this game. However, given the amount of changes an extra multiplier can make, I'm trusting Lloyd and assuming his brilliant score was pot luck.

I'm jelly. I just wish you guys would beat me at the other games. The only games I know will be a major challenge to gain the high score on now are Duck Hunt and 7up Pinball. I'm never giving up though. Lloyd, I will prevail. :P

11th January 2012, 06:28 PM
Well I did beat you at Fullmetal Alchemist game :P Though I'm not sure you consider that very challenging.

11th January 2012, 07:07 PM
It can be, and I'd try and beat your score but I have too many first place scores. XD

21st January 2012, 01:57 PM
So, lately I've been doing a fat load of nothing. Well, nothing of interest anyway. Just pretty usual things. As you'll know though, a lot of crap's gone on lately with the site. That's stressed me out a little bit (although a pretty small amount of stress amongst other things), but I'm glad the site's back on track. I have my concerns about forum activity lately and how many members want to stick around. I mean, there's no obligation. Everyone has responsibilities, and I wouldn't blame anybody. Let's just say I've seen quite a lot of people I considered friends disappear from the community. I don't blame them, absolutely not. They had their reasons.

I value all of your memberships, though. I want you to know that. I've made a lot of good friends here. That's been the best part of building this community, really. I have had some difficulties in my life lately, so if I've ever seemed distant or cold, I'm sorry. Although nothing will replace the fun discussions I had with those who have moved on, I have started a plan to promote the forum again. Some of you joined one year ago. The forum gained a lot of members then and the next couple of months after. That's because I started a promotional plan around 1/5 of the size of this one. I hope we'll get a lot of new members as a result. Be sure to give any new members a warm welcome.

Today I received my Hanmyo poster. I can say it is fantastic, and well worth the money I paid! More good news is that I've started a series of videos today. The working title is simply Outlaw Star Merchandise, but that may change as I'm currently building the intro. I see no reason to change it though. I'm probably the first to start such a series on YouTube, lol.

In other news, I'm currently getting through an anime series called "ef - a tale of melodies", having recently finished a few others. I also just finished a excellent TV series called Day Break, which I will probably write a review about since I enjoyed it so much. I've been trying to get all of the achievements on Scott Pilgrim vs. the World for the Xbox 360, a goal I'm not far off, and I recently completed Sonic CD. I'm currently also playing the Xbox 360 port of Marathon 2: Durandal, which is greatly reminiscent of Doom and similar titles. Although challenging and a little fun, it can get rather tedious at times.

Currently drinking Mountain Dew Energy. I've mostly been drinking water lately which is a good thing, since it's usually just fruit juice or soft drinks.

23rd January 2012, 09:49 AM
Yeah achievement whoring!! And I'm assuming this means you sent out all those cute messages to youtubers. If so, way to go. I hope we can get some new members too, so I'm not forever the newest member listed on the bottom of the homepage...
Glad to hear your Hanmyo poster turned out ok. I ordered a custom sheep poster for my mom for Christmas and it turned out kind of grainy even though the pic was like 4000 x 4000, but I guess from a few feet away it looked ok. I really like the image you chose for it.

23rd January 2012, 10:39 AM
Actually, somebody new did register recently. :P Yeah, I'm an achievement hunter, though those who only buy games for the achievements and basically cheat their way through them really tick me off. How's it an achievement if you use the easy methods? XD I have been sending off the messages, but YouTube's changed so I can't send as many, though I've sent around one hundred so far.

You'll have to PM the picture of the sheep and I'll try and give my opinion on that. Not that you can change it now, but it may help to know why in future. It may have just been a bad company. Also, some scans are at high resolutions yet very unclear at 100%. Glad you like the Hanmyo poster!

23rd January 2012, 11:30 AM
Well, I was woken up rather early (given the fact my sleep isn't great lately) and told I have an appointment today. I ended up still sleeping in a little, but made it to the hospital on time, only to be told my appointment is tomorrow. What a fool I felt like. I thought something was odd. Thanks, mum. Either successful troll is successful, or senile mother is even more senile. Perhaps it was an attempt to fix my sleep. Either way, I'm never following her warnings in future. >_<

24th January 2012, 12:35 AM
Dang dude, that sucks haha XD It may not have been the hospital but this same thing has happened to me with the orthodontists which was an hour away from where I live...

13th February 2012, 11:57 AM
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Heresiarch Grimm
13th February 2012, 01:06 PM
I spilt a small amount of whatever last night. It was only a rather small amount. Unfortunatly for some inane reason my laptop's keyboard is making me type like a moron and I can't even cut and paste properly. I'm going to have to leave my computer off for a number of hours and see if that resolves the issue. I can understand this happening with Coke or various other sticky beverages but not with a simple water spillage. God damn it.

Daily Challenge: Decipher this. Anyway, if it doesn't work looks like I won't be posting for a while... *sigh*

I accept your challenge.

13th February 2012, 01:39 PM
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Daily challenge: deciphevr 0this. Anyway, if it doesn't wovrk, looks 0like I won't be posting fovr 0a while... *sigh*

Let me just fire this old thing up...

"I spilt a small amount of water last night. It was only a rather small amount. Unfortunately, for some inane reason my laptop's keyboard is making me type like a moron, and I can't even cut and paste properly. I'm going to have to leave my computer off for a number of hours and see if that resolves the issue. I can understand this happening with Coke or various other sticky beverages, but not with a simple water spillage. God damn it.

Daily challenge: decipher this. Anyway, if it doesn't work, looks like I won't be posting for a while... *sigh*

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13th February 2012, 09:36 PM
You passed the test, and fortunately my laptop's working fine again. I'm currently downloading Street Fighter 4 for the PC since I got it free with a coupon code. It will work with my 360 USB controller, and supports Games for Windows LIVE so I can get achievements too. Hmmm. Apparently it works better than the console versions as well. Well, I'll be damned. I never played SF4, so this will be interesting.

14th February 2012, 01:35 AM
Despite it being a SecuROM download, since it was a freebie I wasn't going to complain and the installation of the game went fine. However, I haven't been particularly happy. I'll make things easier and own up: I suck at Street Fighter 4, and most fighting games for that matter. And I hate it when I suck, because I often win even when I'm playing games I'm new to. Let me say one thing though. Mortal Kombat (a.k.a. Mortal Kombat 9) for the 360 (and other platforms) gives you a proper training tutorial. I actually found myself learning how to play MK pretty quickly so I didn't particularly need the tutorial, but it did help.

Street Fighter 4? Nothing. The last time I played Street Fighter was the second one on the SNES. And back then I didn't really have any good tactics since I was very young, and can't remember any of the controls for the life of me. I've learned some of the basic moves (I'm playing as Ken) such as the Hadouken and the other ones I can't spell, but it seems the controller often isn't registering my attacks properly. This can't be the problem of the controller though. I'm not having this problem with MK. Anyway, I'm getting totalled in almost every match, and that's only in Arcade mode.

The game has lots of bells and whistles. Anime cutscenes, nice cel-shaded graphics and an iconic crappy script. In many aspects you could say the series has moved forward. But they haven't totally got with the times if they can't even offer a quick tutorial mode like Mortal Kombat has. Granted, like I said, I already knew a lot of MK moves due to playing it quite a bit in the past, but I know a lot of newbies must have benefited from it. I don't even feel like playing this game if I'm not going to be given basic guidance. The GUI and command list don't look user-friendly, and I'm always against opponents who keep spamming the same attack.

tl;dr: I'm starting to lack the patience for fighting games.

Update: Just registered jetsetradio.net. Cool domain, huh? I may be looking for a joint venture in building a Jet Set Radio site. I registered it on a whim, but it didn't cost much. Whatever happens, I won't be taking any considerable attention from this community and I'll never abandon it, no matter what. If I were to create a Jet Set Radio community, it would be with help from others since it's not easy to juggle two sites at once.

26th February 2012, 03:58 AM
Well, over the past week my sister's kids have been staying over, as my sister went on holiday with her boyfriend. Unfortunately, this inadvertently led to another misadventure, so to speak. To make a lengthy story short, it involved a sturdy iron safety (lol) gate, my knees, and high velocity. My legs were killing me for nearly a couple of days so I had to rest. I'm glad to say my legs are a lot better now, though I do hobble quite a bit when walking. And also, the accident wasn't my fault, so I'm spared from feeling like a fool.

Aside from resting quite a bit I've been playing many more video games than usual. The other day I once again (after nearly a half-dozen years) completed Justice for All, the second game in the Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney series. Quite funnily and completely coincidentally, on the same day I ended up watching a film called ...And Justice for All which starred Al Pacino, and it was generally quite enjoyable.

I've also recently managed to get some sweet Xbox 360 deals, and as a result I've recently been playing Resident Evil: Code Veronica X (a HD port) and Sonic & Sega All-Stars Racing, the latter of which I think is much better than Mario Kart. It's refreshing to play Code Veronica again, but I dread having to face the tyrant boss in the plane which I couldn't defeat a decade ago. Steve is also a dufus.

Another episode of The Walking Dead in a day. I can't wait. During my absence I also forgot to set up the MotM polls. I'll do this in the morning/afternoon.

28th February 2012, 04:35 PM
I absolutely despised Steve. Possibly the worst RE character of all time.

And that bastard 'Clubman' in the plane... Jesus Christ, it made me never want to continue from someone else's savegame ever again. He's not really all that much of a problem if you have the right ammo -- and enough of it -- but CV:X wasn't exactly renowned for being generous (especially compared to RE2) or particularly friendly with first-time players. And he's a goddamn inconvenience in the way he arrives, which really ****s up the "oh, wow... maybe I'll try fighting that again after looking around for some possible supplies" option.

And that ****ing metal detector!!

Can't say I've had much experience with SFIV, although I'm told that it was the SF game that all the SFII vets had been waiting for. It was alright to me (being a casual SFII player), but reminded me why I went off SF-style fighters. Too much fireball spam. Get out with that shit.

28th February 2012, 08:50 PM
Hang in there Iron-Leg.

1st March 2012, 04:35 PM
Well, I'm a bit further into CV:X now. I have a couple of those indigo blue eagle plate things. I'm also encountering a lot of those yellow monsters that take a whole handgun clip to kill, and the bow gun is pretty useless unless using the gunpowder arrows which I've run out of. I'm not actually quite sure of what to do, but I think my next steps will be something along the lines of...

- Entering the biohazard room that has that monster inside, which made the scientist's head explode
- Getting the indigo keycard
- Finding more of those plates/hexagonal things
- Finding a way onto the plane

Also, I recently lay down on my bed to watch the rest of The Fellowship of the Ring, since I had the extended version to watch. Except I was only watching it for about ten minutes, because the last thirty minutes were credits! What a joke! Thirty bloody minutes?!

1st March 2012, 05:45 PM
Yep, creating that movie was madness from what I hear.
A production of biblical scale. o_O

Heresiarch Grimm
1st March 2012, 06:29 PM
Lord Of The Rings... Have fun watching the entire series when it's extended ;)

1st March 2012, 11:24 PM
Well, today I made the best decision in a long time and deactivated my Facebook account. I made another one for the sole purpose of managing the Outlaw Star UK page (since without a profile at all I'd lose ownership), but this should certainly help with procrastination. I used Facebook not only to read others' posts, but it was also a major source of news from various pages and I often spent hours every day on the site. However, I read that deactivating my account doesn't quite get rid of it, and for some reason apparently friends can still send me messages..? It seems I can delete it totally but I might want to return to Facebook in either 2013 or 2014. If it doesn't become unpopular like MySpace did, that is. But I can't see that happening any time soon...

I watched some of The IT Crowd today. You guys really need to watch it if you haven't already.

1st March 2012, 11:39 PM
Well, today I made the best decision in a long time and deactivated my Facebook account.

I want to do this, but there are a handful of people that I want to stay in contact with... and that bastard site is the only convenient way.

I watched some of The IT Crowd today. You guys really need to watch it if you haven't already.


4th March 2012, 12:37 AM
Well, I completed Crysis and now I've started Red Dead Redemption. It's been fantastic so far, and since it seems to use the same engine, in terms of core gameplay mechanics it's quite similar to GTA IV. (Or GTA in general.) I've been a good outlaw so far and helped the sheriffs out with bounties, and residents with their problems.


However, a few hours ago I got bored after ending up in some deserted area with a few small houses. A woman was being really annoying and mouthing off at me, so I was bored and slightly pissed. What do I do in sandbox games when I'm bored and pissed? I unleash absolute chaos, because I know I can just revert to the previous save file and become good again. So, I knocked this woman down with my lasso and tied her up. Then I put her on my horse and galloped away, essentially kidnapping her.

I know how this sounds, and I really wouldn't go as far as raping someone on a video game, because that's even beyond my limits of weirdness. (If that's even possible in this game.) However, an evil smirk crept across my face as I came to a certain realisation. Since I was heading in no particular direction and I had a bounty on my head, I had to think of something to do with this useless woman who wouldn't shut up. And I came across a train track. She was tied up with ropes. You know where this is going.

So, I cautiously got my horse to stop on the tracks which was next to a small village, worried someone would notice what I was doing and alert the sheriffs, or just shoot me. But nope! I placed her on the tracks and nobody did a thing. One guy even walked towards her, looked at her, then walked away. I saw the train approaching and sat near the tracks gleefully. (You know you've been a sick bastard on a sandbox game too at one point.) SPLAT! Guts were flung in all directions. Then I was given an achievement: "Dastardly"! It read, "Place a hogtied woman on the train tracks, and witness her death by train." I burst out laughing because I didn't even know it was an achievement. Ah, fun times. Good game.

Edit: LMAO, I Googled this and someone expressed my exact feelings (http://www.cracked.com/blog/6-ways-red-dead-redemption-hates-women/). I guess my manic laughter turned into nervous laughter.

4th March 2012, 09:25 PM
Haha, that's awesome. Man, I haven't played a sandbox game in a long time. I essentially got bored of GTA: San Andreas and didn't find myself touching another one again. The repetition of the PS2 line of GTA games probably just got to me. xD

I've definitely heard good things from this, however. I should take a peek at it once I complete this list of games I have unfinished, haha.

6th March 2012, 02:03 PM
New member today! Fan-****ing-tastic! He is called AnthonyJackson, is from Australia, and looks like someone from Baywatch. Except my suspicions of this hip Australian being a spambot were correct. His signature says "waste management". My thoughts exactly. Goodbye, Sir Jackson. This is what happens to spambots, except it's the train from Hecatonchires that does the deed.


I'm almost at the end of the Lord of the Rings trilogy. Halfway through Return of the King, to be specific. Since I haven't watched anime for quite a while, I figure I'll watch the Tales of Vesperia film soon and see where I go from there. My sleep schedule's pretty messed up again. But to be honest, at its core, isn't time just a matter of semantics?

6th March 2012, 02:58 PM
Don't get ready to turn Return Of The King off until the credits actually begin to roll; that film has about 30 endings all plastered one straight after the other, I lost count of the number of times we got ready to go, only for more talk to happen and make us stay put.

As for the Spambot... well he did seem somewhat 'mechanical'. I only saw one of his posts though.

6th March 2012, 08:49 PM
Heh, sounds like fun. I'll finish it tonight, probably. And indeed, spambots are usually easy to identify. I'm just glad I don't get so many anymore.

So, today I ordered a new Outlaw Star custom item. A collage mug that only cost me £1.99 delivered, and since it's an offer by the same guys who made the Hanmyo poster for me, I won't doubt its quality. For that price, I can't complain. It's a black mug (although a white interior) with six of the film strip images from the Through the Night opening. I'll be sure to post pics when I get it.

6th March 2012, 10:41 PM
Awesome, can't wait to see those items, mantis. :D

7th March 2012, 12:13 AM
Both me an my brother have the game and I witnessed this same exact type of chaos from him. I've yet to do the same. In games like this one, fallout, and oblivion I just can't make myself be an evil character XD Funny though.

Pretty cool that they made a movie. Is it actually animated, or cgi?

My favorite scene out of that whole entire trilogy is when the Rohirrim show up to Ministereth and do their epic charge. The music and the scene as a whole just sends chills and makes my hair stand haha.

And congrats on the mug man, can't wait to see the pics.

7th March 2012, 07:45 PM
I think from what I can gather there is some CGI in the Tales of Vesperia animation, but the characters are all animated as you would expect from an anime.

I finished the trilogy tonight. What a sad ending, in a good way. It has been such a fresh experience after nearly a decade. I look forward to December when the first "The Hobbit" film is showing. I think I'll get some LotR soundtracks. I didn't pay much attention to the music in the past since I haven't seen the films in so long, so I guess I didn't have a lot to associate the music with. Whilst some people can just listen to soundtrack music and enjoy it without knowing the scene(s) it's from, I find that difficult.

12th March 2012, 02:41 PM
Well, I was excited about seeing the Metal Gear Solid HD Collection in the post today. Alas...


Heresiarch Grimm
12th March 2012, 04:24 PM
What, you didn't like it?

I'm waiting on the ZoE HD Collection. Can't wait for that (even if it is just newer graphics).

12th March 2012, 04:58 PM
I know I'll love it. It just didn't arrive despite the estimated delivery time. It had better come tomorrow. :) Yeah, I look forward to the ZoE HD Collection simply because I haven't played the series yet, then there's Silent Hill. And I ought to get the HD version of Resident Evil 4 too, despite the fact I'm not too keen on how action-orientated it is.

13th March 2012, 02:45 PM
No delivery today. I checked my order status today and it's STILL PROCESSING. They didn't even e-mail me! **** Zavvi, **** them up the bleeding arse. I call their customer service, no bloody answer every time, just an automated message from some Indian guy saying "all our advisor are busy"[sic], followed by "please wait while we connect you to one of our advisor". Then it hangs up.

Last time I'm dealing with them. I was tempted by their 10% off "we miss you" code. Tossers.

13th March 2012, 10:03 PM
Damn man, sorry to hear :'(

13th March 2012, 11:06 PM
I was pretty pissed off when I wrote that. :D I might spend the refund money on some stuff for Outlaw Star UK. (For instance, finally some extra advertising.) All for Great Justice. Or I might just go to town and blow it on some cheap games. I'm just tired of this BS and figure I'll wait until the HD Collection goes cheap.

20th March 2012, 09:42 PM
Well, the past week hasn't been terribly eventful. I had a friend come over and he showed me a "shmup" game for the Xbox 360. A top-down shooter. To those who don't game a lot, think of the viewing style of Space Invaders, but with hundreds of enemies and projectiles coming towards you that you need lightning reactions to avoid, and attractive graphics to boot. I expected to fail hard. Well, I did for my first life, but I did pretty well after that. Then we decided to start co-op on Gears of War, which I never actually got round to playing. So when he has more spare time perhaps we'll get through that.

I went out with family for a meal tonight. I had a "steak burger", but it honestly wasn't anything out of the ordinary. Passable, but not much of an upgrade from your standard beef burger in terms of quality. The sticky toffee pudding I had for dessert was nice, however. A bit small compared to the spare ribs I could have chosen as a starter instead, but meh. Now I'm really tired. Kind of mellow, you might say. I'd go to sleep now, but knowing me I'll end up waking up at 4.00AM, thus wrecking my sleep pattern even more.

I've had a lot of thoughts about the community lately. It's clear nobody could give a tuppenny fuck about giving me feedback for the smiley, so I'll go with what I think is best. And for that matter, if nobody's going to step up to the plate and help me out, well, it's time to plan something. Because this community ain't going forwards no longer. It's going backwards. I was advised that most people (i.e. potential members) and current members are probably growing bored of Outlaw Star, and that I should cover new anime. I couldn't do that. It would be an act of completely abandoning why I made the decision to create this community in the first place. However, what I am thinking of doing is making this site (main site and forums) about '90s anime in general (predominantly Outlaw Star, though).

Don't like that? Then for the love of god (or whatever omnipotent forces are out there), state your opinion. In the past, occasionally, when I've made changes to my YouTube channel or this site I've had one or two negative comments about what I'm doing. Sorry brah, I see nothing in my suggestion box. Move along now. But if you have an opinion, let me know. I'm all ears.

21st March 2012, 01:06 PM
I was unable to even look at the topic regarding the smileys (along with another topic, I can't remember which though), and simply assumed it was some sort of open/shut case that I'd missed. As it stands though (having seen the smiley), I think it's fine.

As for broadening the site to be about 90's anime in general, I can't see why not (although obviously keeping Outlaw Star as primary concern is a no-brainer). It's one way to create a community and get potential discussion going, so if you think it'll work then go for it (I must point out here though that my knowledge of anime overall is a lot like my knowledge of world cultures; I know they exist, and I even know the names of some of them... I just know ****-all else about most of it).

As for 'steak burger'... I've never heard of this. All I can picture is a grilled steak between two bits of bread. Oh me and my wild imagination.

21st March 2012, 02:11 PM
Was there a permission problem with the thread, or did you miss it? Well, basically the choice was my original "final" smiley, or a suggested edit from some guy on Facebook.

Intended Final Smile: http://www.outlawstar.co.uk/files/smile.png

Suggested Final Smile: http://www.outlawstar.co.uk/files/smileedit.png

I can see how in some ways the suggested edit is better, but since the eyes are one pixel in height, I'd rather spare that narrowness for Suzuka. If there are no objections, I'll go for my original final smiley, then. Yeah, I agree about '90s anime. I'd change the shortly-to-be-updated gallery to feature a lot of other anime in a '90s section (keeping Outlaw Star as the primary source), but keep the wiki (when it's up...) only about Outlaw Star. And then perhaps I could have a forum category with some forums about '90s anime. For instance, Dragon Ball Z, Cowboy Bebop, some Gundam series, Escaflowne, amongst many others. I have had another member who feels a little reluctant about such changes, however. So I'll need to think about this.

The steak burger had a little bit of cheese on top of the steak. But otherwise you pretty much hit the nail on the head. Also, I prefer my steak more rare than well (but not dripping with blood), but you don't get a choice with the steak burger. It seemed to be medium. Eh, what can you do.

21st March 2012, 02:30 PM
It was a permissions problem IIRC, I just told myself it must have been locked and thrown away and thought nothing else of it at the time.

And I prefer the original, mainly because of the eyes. One pixel in height would be absurd regardless of reflecting 'accuracy'; what would Suzuka's eyes end up as? Mere lines? Besides which, it's designed to be a smiley on a forum, not some sort of world-beating attempt at official artwork for an unofficial manga sequel (wat).

So yeah... in one sentence, "stick with the original, it just looks better for the intended purpose."

Heresiarch Grimm
21st March 2012, 03:59 PM
Yea, the smiley thing was locked to me because I didn't have permission to view it. I had a similar problem with another thread (don't recall which one though).

Can you have a mix of the original's eyes with the suggested one's smile? If not then go for the original one.

21st March 2012, 04:24 PM
Oh wow, crap. It seems the whole Suggestions, Comments and Complaints forum is blocked off from all members. No wonder nobody voted. Ironically nobody commented on this bug, but I'm going to sort it out now. Yeah, I suppose I could do a mix. Here are two edits I've made so far:

Narrow Width Eyes: http://www.outlawstar.co.uk/files/smilenarrowwidth.png

(Looks a little odd to me.)

Edited Smile: http://www.outlawstar.co.uk/files/smilenew.png

(Hmmmmm. Without the narrow eyes he doesn't look smug anymore.)

21st March 2012, 06:07 PM
Oh, the edited smile has to be used now. Finalise that bitch!

28th March 2012, 02:16 PM
Had a day out today. A trip to brilliant Birmingham. It seems Game (and likely Gamestation) has been closed here too. I am currently on the train back, which has been a chavtastic journey thus far. There was a chavette mouthing off because apparently somebody was in the way when they were nowhere near the door. And also I'm in the "quiet zone" where loads of babies are crying. Meh.

28th March 2012, 02:56 PM
All I can say is:

28th March 2012, 04:36 PM
LOL! XD 10/10. I've been asked if I have a lighter twice today. Once in Birmingham and once in my hometown near Manchester. For god's sake, if you're going to smoke your way to death, buy your own flipping lighter! Well, hopefully I can get to bed at a decent time tonight. I got two hours of sleep since I was sneezing all last night. I always get colds at the most illogical times of the year despite not having hay fever.

Although I am glad the weather is finally looking, well, not shit. Also, thanks to our favourite cheapo shop, Poundland, I tried out one of these again for the first time in ages:


2nd April 2012, 03:41 PM
Woo-hoo, I finally passed the 20000 gamerscore mark on Xbox Live. Specifically, it's 20001. It would be cooler if it was the exact number. Ah well.

2nd April 2012, 05:42 PM
Congrats man. Still higher than me. I just reached the 10000 mark not long ago. Curious as to how you got 2000"1" though haha XD

Heresiarch Grimm
2nd April 2012, 06:22 PM
He went that one step further ;)

2nd April 2012, 06:27 PM
There are some achievements that award you with odd numbers, which can annoy a lot of achievement hunters since if they want to make the number even, they have to find other odd number achievements. :P Or should I say, odd numbers that aren't a multiple of five, since I think all achievements should be valued at a multiple of five. Congrats reaching 10000. I remember reaching that a little over a year ago I think. Amazing how I've doubled that number in a single year when I first got my 360 three and a half years ago.

I'm other news, I'm pissed off that my legs are still not totally better. I hate the NHS giving me stupid estimates. For instance, they told me a year and a half ago my then-fractured right hand would take just a few weeks to recover. I'm pretty sure it took 6-8 months to be able to lift heavy objects as well as my other hand, and at least a couple of months to lift medium-weight items. They told me my legs would fully recover in a fortnight when I injured them six weeks ago. Yet I still sometimes find myself limping to get around the house.

Meh. :@

2nd April 2012, 06:44 PM
Doesn't matter the number for me. Any interval odd or even is welcomed for me haha. And thanks man ^^ I have skyrim to thank for that. And really sucks to hear man :( Despite how many times I've hurt myself I've never broken any bones or been out of commission for too long.

/me knocks on wood.

Hope you heal up soon man.

4th April 2012, 07:25 PM
Thanks Koki, and I'm in a pretty good mood now. I had a Bluray player which I got pretty cheap, but I ended up rarely using it. I sold it to my dad today and he paid me for it by buying the Metal Gear Solid HD Collection, and also starting his Amazon Prime trial. Basically, we ordered the game at 6.30PM, and I'll get it in the morning. Awesome, huh?

I know what I'm going to be hooked on soon enough... :D I miss MGS2, and I never even played Snake Eater or Peace Walker.

Heresiarch Grimm
4th April 2012, 08:44 PM
Snake eater is amazing. I myself got the two secret items from that game and it made it much more fun.

Haven't played Peace Walker. I hear it's good though.

4th April 2012, 11:27 PM
I did see that they had that collection out.
Let me know if it's as awesome as I think it is.

5th April 2012, 12:44 PM

It just arrived. Time for some sweet gaming.

6th April 2012, 03:24 AM
Carry on good sir, carry on. :cool:

17th April 2012, 01:15 AM
Well, the HD Collection has been a blast. In the usual sense, and almost in the literal sense since I spent a couple of hours on Peace Walker which claimed to "automatically save your progress", but when I loaded it up again I was presented with only one option: New Game. I've completed Metal Gear Solid 2 for the first time in a decade and it's as fantastic as ever. I've been playing Metal Gear Solid 3, but honestly it's not really anything amazing so far. It's very good, but it wouldn't surpass an 8/10 score in my books, and that's with some extra generosity too.

I've not really been in the best mood over the past few days. I was in an accident of sorts on Friday, you see. I'm not going to go into specifics, but it was pretty painful. Thankfully, it wasn't too serious. I'm recovering from the problem now, but I was really pissed off at the time since I had a few tasks to complete on the day and it interfered with that. It also ****ed up my mouth with at least four cuts which each turned into extremely painful ulcers. (The non-contagious kind.)

Thankfully, there's been a great breakthrough today. My grandma suggested one of her awesome remedies. Well, most guides for ulcers suggest using salt-based remedies. However, my gran suggested diluting a couple of aspirin tablets in water for a while, and then using it as mouthwash. It's worked amazingly. I feel no pain at all now. I can handle one or two ulcers okay anyway, but I've never had this many, so it hurt so much over the past couple of days that I couldn't focus on nearly anything. I'm just glad it'll be sorted soon.

Since I've spent the last few days resting I've watched quite a few films. I've also started watching a funny series called Max and Paddy's Road to Nowhere. Oh, and I recently started playing Metro 2033, a game I've had lying around for a while but hadn't started yet. Very good game so far.

17th April 2012, 12:23 PM
Mouth ulcers, Christ I hate those with a passion -- they seem to appear overnight for no goddamn reason at all.

I usually attempt to get rid of them by loading my face with mouthwash and brushing the bastards into oblivion. Stings like a bitch and bleeds, sure, but they're usually 'removed' and the pain's gone after a while.

I'm just going to assume someone was stirring razorblades into your tea. I don't know why, but it's the first thing that came to mind.

17th April 2012, 12:24 PM
Had a visit from la policia today. Get this. Some hooligans removed one of the doors of the garage last night to steal anything of value. The problem for them was that the only thing of value in there was a rowing machine which is heavier than those probably-scrawny bastards could ever lift. And then there's my bike, which I swear to god had better not have been stolen, but my parents had a quick look and haven't mentioned it. (I'd check now, but I'd rather wait until the police/my parents return.) There was a bit of booze however. It's just too bad that when I do finally fall asleep it's difficult to wake me up, else I'd probably have caught the thieves during their pathetic heist.

So this female officer came to ask me a few questions. I basically told her, "Let's cut to the chase; our garage is back there, minus a door." Since my parents are out shopping she's coming back in about half an hour to talk to them. But since we hadn't reported the crime yet (my parents were sceptical as to whether the thieves looted anything decent other than a few beers), it seems either somebody else reported them, or the thugs are in custody. Hopefully the latter. The plot thickens. :thinking:

2nd May 2012, 05:27 PM
I forgot to update this, with regard to the last post. It turned out that my bike had been stolen, as well as my dad's bike and a load of beers. Fortunately, the thugs were in custody. The police apprehended them just shortly after the robbery. Unfortunately, the police shuffled our goods better than David Blaine can shuffle a pack of cards. This was originally because the thieves had separated and taken one bike and the beers to one district of our town, and the other bike to another district.

When I went with my dad to pick up the bikes however, as per the police's request, they had moved the bikes to another police station. After this ridiculous ordeal, things were generally sorted. The thieves were actually rather young. I think one was fourteen and the other two were seventeen. The older ones were "charged" (police term in this context for telling them to not do it again, and letting them go), and the younger one let off the hook entirely, although apparently he's going to write a letter of apology. I seriously doubt it will be honest though, and I bet he'll get involved in it again.

Anyway, over the past few days I've been elsewhere in the country, and it wasn't a very interesting time away, I can say that much. I did fortunately get internet signal and created a Wi-Fi hotspot from my phone, and used that to tether my laptop and thus get on the internet. However, I was so tired I didn't do much and spent most of my spare time watching anime or other stuff. I watched a hilarious film called Attack the Block which was made in part by the creators of Shaun of the Dead and Scott Pilgrim vs. The World. I couldn't recommend it more.


2nd May 2012, 11:00 PM
Sorry to hear man. Really p****s me off that people (especially kids of this age) would do such a thing. Do parents even care about raising their children properly or keeping an eye on them anymore? Makes me sick. What makes me even more frustrated about this is how easy they got off the hook. Doesn't matter if it was only some bikes and beverages, they broke into someones property and committed THEFT. If they got off that easily they're gonna think they'll get off just as easy the next time or even tell others that they won't get in that much trouble which will then lead to even more thefts, so what da'fuq were the police thinking?

....Anyways, I'm actually *cough-cough* "obtaining" the movie you mentioned above now in 720p. Should be done shortly and I'll watch it sometime tonight.

3rd May 2012, 12:05 AM
Well, I don't know how things are in the US, but that's generally how it is over here. Yobs nearly always leave the station scot-free. For repeated offences they will sometimes get an ASBO (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anti-Social_Behaviour_Order), though. Nevertheless, it's ridiculous. Without proper enforcement, they'll never learn.

Glad to hear you're checking out Attack the Block. I'm certain you'll love it. If you understand the slang (http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=blud), I'm sure you'll laugh your ass off at the scene in the elevator with the linked word mentioned, but I will say no more.

3rd May 2012, 12:40 AM
Haha I saw the trailer for that awhile back Mantis. Its gotta be good if Nick Frost is in it lol

22nd May 2012, 04:55 AM
I said I'd write the IRC guide tonight, but I've had a lingering bad headache and I really don't feel up to it. So, tomorrow it will be. I'm sure you guys who can't get on will survive for another day.

3rd July 2012, 02:03 PM
Wow, I completely forgot about the IRC guide, but I'm surprised most aren't consulting Google. Unfortunately, my laptop has once again come down with a case of the unexpected shutdowns. I will have to leave it alone for a while. In the meantime I have installed Tapatalk on my phone but need to install support for this forum... using this phone. That might prove difficult. I have a netbook hopefully coming this way by the end of this week. I bought it to run it as a Hackintosh for game dev purposes, but I suppose it would make a good emergency Internet device. ;)

3rd July 2012, 03:50 PM
I have installed support for Tapatalk, which is available for most modern mobile phones. I'm posting using it now and it is much easier. I'll make an official announcement in the near future. I suggest installing Tapatalk for your phone. It's awesome.

15th July 2012, 02:19 AM
A few days back I mentioned receiving a pretty cool package from a friend in China. I didn't get round to adding the pictures, though. I took quite a few photos, so this isn't a bandwidth-light post, but I guess it's too late to warn you about that.

First up, the sweets and chocolates. The fruit-flavoured sugary sweets reminded me of the UK's Fruit Pastilles, but she has since told me they're from a company in Sweden or something. I'm officially confused. The lollipops were nice.


We don't get many Hershey's chocolates in the UK, so it's nice to get a Chinese version.


This toy is an interesting little thing. You slide the thick end of the wooden stick down its back, and, you guessed it... it croaks.


My friend lives in Chengdu, which is known by many as the "Home of the Giant Pandas" (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chengdu#Home_of_the_Giant_Pandas), and she has also sent me this which she got presumably from the breeding centre mentioned in the Wikipedia article.


This vial she sent me has a grain of rice inside with my name written on it. Although it's awesome, I was a bit perplexed at first by the note that came with it because she had written rice like "tice". Anyway, this alone is a great gift, although you can't see my name in this photograph.


She told me she'd send me some of her art in her next delivery. She didn't tell me she'd send a whole sketchpad of it which I'm quite impressed by. I've only taken photos of a selection of the sketches. This is some nice manga-style art.


...whereas these two are more traditional artwork. I think she has a good level of talent. I'm a little jealous actually, since I'm only just taking my first steps into seriously learning how to draw. :P



I'm not sure if you can read it, but it says "A Street Cat Named Bob". Like my cat, it's a ginger tabby, but I wasn't aware of this particular cat before. Apparently, the scarf he is wearing was sewn for him in China, or something like that. I think she messed up the grammar on the 7up page. ;) But, I'm glad she remembered 7up being one of my favourite drinks.


That cat next to the 7up? It happens to be hers! Despite her message, maybe she thinks of herself as a kid, but I sure as hell wish I could consider myself one. =/


She did a brilliant job with this Dragon Ball drawing. As a matter of fact, it's even getting me wanting to watch the series, though I'll probably watch the watered down version. Kai, or something?


Not only does she know that I love 7up, but also what my favourite anime series is:


This is probably one of the most amazing set of gifts I've ever been given. I didn't even take a photo of everything. She also sent me many postcards of some amazing places in China. It's like my birthday or Christmas come early. :P Sure, I've been given gifts with more material value before, but almost nothing with as much thought, effort and kindness as this. I'd much prefer this than a £30 voucher or game, for instance.

There's only one problem. Being a guy and all (best excuse in the book), it's not so easy to think of decent stuff to send to her in the near future. Not to mention, China and where she lives in general seem a lot more interesting than this hole. I'm going to have to spend a little time thinking about this. Honestly, I can't think of many souvenirs I can buy that weren't made in China in the first place. :D Hmmm. Well, I'd ask for ideas, but I guess this is something I should figure out myself.

20th July 2012, 01:36 AM
Pretty good gifts you got there Mantis; good luck on your gift ideas for her. I've been with my fiance for over 7 years and I still can't figure out what to get her for her birthday.

20th July 2012, 01:58 AM
Well, I wouldn't compare it to buying gifts for a girlfriend since we're just friends. But I guess it's not much easier since it's a universal fact that women in general are a pain to think of gifts for. :P Hmm, updates. Well, I got an iControlPad for my phone which makes it very awesome for emulation since I can hold it like a handheld console with a full set of buttons and analogue nubs. I've also delved into the world of Mass Effect. I'm sort of kicking myself for not paying attention to the game when I first got my 360 since it is fantastic.

28th July 2012, 01:56 PM
I have a pretty snazzy desk... to be delivered, that is. Unfortunately, the seller of the desk pushed back the collection date. Now I'm trying to get through to some courier services to see if any would be willing to deliver on a Sunday, tomorrow. I've tried about ten so far. One of them only delivers between France and the UK, yet for some reason unknown to me their business is listed on the local directory, and another wanted an extortionate payment. Two of them had modem sounds when I called them. Christ, who is still on 56k in urban areas? =/ The rest went through to a default answer machine. I know Saturday isn't a standard day to get through to a business, but can't they at least record a custom answer machine message to sound a little more professional?

Edit: I found one guy who gave me a very reasonable deal. Tomorrow will be a good day for mantiskind.

17th June 2015, 02:11 AM
Journal, long time no see. :thinking:

In general, things have been pretty uneventful lately as far as that thing called life goes. In late 2012 I got my own apartment at last. I'll have to post some kind of tour sometime. The place needs a good tidying since I'm rearranging a lot of things very shortly. Obviously, lately I've been making the long-delayed forum you're on now, and it's still not done. (I have a few features to add.) But I've also been busy with some business which has distracted me from that.


I established a business last year, called Blue Mantis Games (http://www.bluemantisgames.com). This summer I'm finally going to get very serious with the first games, but I've also done a few jobs for clients in the meantime. This is one of them. It's a companion app for a card game called Japanese: The Game. I've been a bit stressed for the past few days. The app is on the Google Play Store for Android devices and I was just about to release the much-delayed iPhone/iPad version when a huge bug just appeared. Without going into technical details, I've had to consult a couple of coders and pay for a fix to the bug since it was out of my hands. I still haven't finished applying it but I really hope it'll work. Soon my client will be making the same kind of card game for Mandarin. Although I want to focus on my game projects, it's nice to have some extra money coming in so I can fund them.

Did I forget to mention that I got a cat originally called Melfina?


When I bought him I was told he was female. I guess it made sense to call him Melfina, but a couple of weeks later I was told by the vet it's a he, so that's how he got named Mel. :aishatongue:

I can't think of much else to write and I should be going to bed soon. I hope my parcel from Japan comes tomorrow. You can guess what's in it! It's not all Outlaw Star though, but I have about 1000% as much merchandise as I did when I closed OSUK. So, the lack of interesting stuff to write about is a good summary of my life at the moment! More stuff needs to happen, and maybe it will, especially in my business.

1st July 2015, 06:42 PM
Journal, we meet again.

I've not visited here in a few days which I've felt a little bit annoyed by, but I'm glad to see a fair flow of activity and that everybody has behaved! Today is a special day for two reasons!

It's the hottest day in England in a decade, with temperatures down south reaching nearly 37°C (99°F)
Today (in the next hour I hope) I'm going to announce the competition winners

First of all, the main thing that's been keeping me busy is the app I've been working on. Not only have I released the new version now, but I've also submitted the app to Apple for the first iPhone release. There's still some more work to do for another client, but I can rest a bit now since the main hurdle is cleared. And what a great day to acknowledge that most of this is over, since I said that summer will be the season of game development for me this year.

The heat is quite bad, but I have said to others that I want to move somewhere hot in future so I've not really complained about it. My reasoning is that I'm surviving okay at my desk here at 30°C with no air conditioning, so if I move somewhere where this is standard with good air conditioning, I'll be laughing. I love this weather, because I love the sun. Nice skies are often rare in the UK. Regardless, Mel isn't handling this so well (often panting), so for his sake (okay, it's a bit of an excuse) I ordered this evaporative air cooler:


As powerful as an air conditioner? Hell no, but I live in a flat/apartment and I can't get an air conditioner, so this is the next best thing. I hear it works pretty well. You just load water/ice into it and let it do its thing.

I'd better do my thing (and allow the number randomiser to do its thing) and get the competition results out now.

10th July 2015, 04:17 PM
So, the air cooler came this morning. It's awesome! Also, I'm about to go to some "American" restaurant for one of my sisters' fortieth birthday. That means tasty meat, I assume? Then I can't wait. I'm even wearing this t-shirt:


(No offence to any delicate vegans.)

12th July 2015, 03:56 AM
...what is an 'American' restaurant, asks an American who has no idea what is considered actually 'American' food. Also, your big sister is reminding me of my oldest cousin now...Congrats to her :D Hopefully she doesn't still get mistaken for a teenager [well, maybe she'd like that now? hrm...]

28th July 2015, 10:28 AM
Well, it turned out the restaurant wasn't so American-themed after all. But since you're wondering, I'd generally think of such a restaurant as one that serves several large meat dishes, sometimes steakhouses. Basically a vegetarian's nightmare. There was an "American restaurant" in Montparnasse, Paris called the Hippopotamus (https://foursquare.com/v/hippopotamus/4d6c07038e10224b3f1150b6) that I went to five years ago.

Anyway, I thought I should post an update. I've been away for quite a while now, only visiting the forum a few times in the last couple of weeks. For the better part of a week I was in hospital. Without going into too much detail about the visit, I had limited internet access, so getting on the website was a bother. But that isn't an excuse alone. Aside from the hospital I've had a few other stresses to deal with lately, which I'm sad to say has pushed Nexus down my list of priorities. And this sucks because I've noticed the activity level lately has suffered. :aishaawkward: I can't just expect people to post. Perhaps I should teach myself to let it be, but I don't want this place to turn into a ghost town. Maybe I should accept that it's not necessarily the love for this community that's dying, but Outlaw Star itself. It's an old anime. I still buy merchandise though. Old habits die hard.

12th August 2015, 09:43 PM
Well I hope you're feeling better now, stay healthy you!
And hey, there's nothing wrong with supporting the fandom through active consumerism - 'murica, mnyes.
Besides, it could always be worse (http://i449.photobucket.com/albums/qq215/Hellsoul4ever/otaku-figure-collection.jpg).

Alas, never fear!
True love for Outlaw Star shall not perish my friend.
I'm always able to find a few souls in the day to day who remember watching OS with deep fondness.
And though we get distracted time and time again, we'll always come back to our internet home away from home, the OS Nexus.

Hang in there Mantis!

13th August 2015, 09:11 PM
Indeed, Mantis. Don't let the lack of activity discourage you from keeping up what you have going.

14th September 2015, 11:41 AM

I must be a prophet or something. :thinking: I'm not going to whine about it, but I think it's a right move to cut my losses and turn Nexus into a research site of sorts where I'll post my OS materials. Everyone would be happy that way, and then I can move on from Outlaw Star. It's a tough thing to do, but sometimes you've just got to when you realise something isn't going anywhere. First of all though, I'm dispatching the delayed competition prizes. (Sorry to Asher and June.) As soon as I photocopy all of the storyboard pages I'll get round to posting them. I think I'll have to delay further with the Facebook winner however since he's moving to Alaska and I don't want the soundtracks to get lost during that transition.

15th September 2015, 04:23 AM
Sorry to hear that, but I do understand why. Just hate to admit that what is happening.

15th September 2015, 05:51 PM
It's a shame.
But, no matter what happens, I think we'll all be forever grateful that a place like this exists.
Hang in there buddy.

Viva Outlaw Star.

19th September 2015, 10:57 PM
It is a shame how seemingly short-lived the site's lifespan was, but I'm glad it's not going away completely. I think you were right - it's moreso that the love for Outlaw Star is declining, given that the show is around 17 years old now and hasn't had anything related to it since 2001. That applies to anything though - if someone made a forum about Cowboy Bebop (I know, I know), a much more acclaimed series, it probably wouldn't get much more activity since, like OS, there've been no updates on it for years.

Hell, it might've even got LESS activity. Just look at both series' respective fan wikis; OS wikia is updated a lot more frequently, has richer amounts of content and looks a lot prettier, whereas CB wikia has a nice-looking homepage but every other page is basically a mess.

23rd September 2015, 05:15 AM
I'm sad to see this place become a ghost town, but it's hard to keep a forum focused on one single topic alive for a long time, no matter what it is. I've wanted to post, but I could never think of a new topic to make, and the ones I did post in before died out.
Still, it was at least nice to revisit one of my older forums that I dearly enjoyed and loved.

27th September 2015, 06:01 PM
Thanks for the responses, guys. Outlaw Star UK is officially off the radar now, since a couple of days ago. I thought there's no point in renewing the domain. It did have an archived version of the old forums, and I might do the same thing with Nexus and let it remain as an old archive or maybe I'll keep it open as a section of the new (not worked on it yet though) research-based site. It depends. I don't think I'll have much to moderate anyway.

Though my original vision was an Outlaw Star community, over the years I intended to shift its focus to a general chat community for people who happen to like Outlaw Star. Alas, since there are so many forums out there or Facebook/Tumblr/whatever groups that offer that with more content, I've known for a while that OSUK/OSN's days were numbered. I just thought it wouldn't be quite this soon.

The fandom may have faded, but it won't die. I for one will always be a huge fan of the series even if I've got to move on to other things in life. And as soon as I create the pages, I'll keep Nexus open as an information centre for Outlaw Star (something Gwen Khan would approve of) for as long as I can. I already host a few other websites. Keeping this one open doesn't hurt much financially. Also, I'm now delving into game development as well as game journalism. I'll definitely release some games in the near future and I'll add some Outlaw Star references in my second title onwards. ;)

The number one thing that Outlaw Star taught me is this: "You're completely in charge of your own destiny—that's the only certain thing in life. So, believe in yourself, and create your own destiny. Don't fear failure. You have nothing to lose. Open your eyes, shout out, and continue forward! This is only the beginning of history."

9th August 2016, 12:23 PM
Long time no see, old friend. Well, I managed to get Nexus back on its feet again, even if it's early days. Sometimes when I've successfully encouraged Outlaw Star discussion I feel like I've threaded the eye of the needle. It doesn't come easy. Thanks to the others here Nexus still standing and I hope we can keep it that way for the foreseeable future. I'll bring new content this week. Outlaw Star needs a base of such; a headquarters. Facebook just isn't good enough. I keep it running because it's a necessary evil. People do use it, lots of them, but there's no connection between fans. It's just a place where people can say, "Ooh, that's a pretty picture." Which is all well and good, but that's not what fandom is about to me. The Outlaw Star reddit is dead. Where else but Nexus? Tell me. I'm all ears.

Returning to the main point of these journals though, I've been managing. Today in particular I've been grouchy. Firstly, my new alarm clock plan failed. I like using my computer as an alarm clock, but the problem is that it's a power hog, and power is something I need to monitor, explained below. I found software that can actually wake up a computer from its low-power sleep mode at a specific time. So, I set it to load up my computer again at 8.30 and play one of my favourite radio stations on Pandora. It failed and I woke up at around 11.30. Interestingly, when I returned to my computer and woke it up again, it appeared the program had worked and loaded up Pandora, but Pandora didn't load because the internet connection failed, then after a couple of hours my computer went back to sleep again. Sounds like we share something in common. I'm baffled as to why Pandora wouldn't connect. The webpage simply didn't load at all. This isn't the only time an alarm clock has failed me. It's happened on multiple occasions. One time a more conventional alarm's batteries had ran out on an assignment hand-in day. Now that was a rush.

Now, secondly, I was recently billed for nearly £1200 (~$1550) for energy usage. Seeing as how I'm a single person in an apartment who doesn't run a generator I was on the phone to my power company several times. They assured me it was a big misunderstanding and any charges would be waived and they'd also give me a smart meter. Today I got another letter saying they'd like the payment. I told the queue bot that I'd like a call back, because nothing's more joyous than having your ear blasted with annoying upbeat music for over half an hour. The only worse thing they could have done is play Happy Happy Joy Joy (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OZpgnYhzdkI).

So, I'm waiting for that call back. Today I have work to do for a client. When all of that's done I hope to get back to my schedule of three hours a day on the manga. As for me in general, I've felt a lot better over the past month since I have a new girlfriend who is awesome. Also, sounds like a weird thing to talk about, but I got a new bookcase a few weeks ago. I've been busy with a lot of things and also a little unwell at times so I haven't completed filling it yet, but hopefully this week! It's a really big one which will help with organising this humble abode of mine. There's plenty of books, magazines and video games just waiting for it. As I want to start doing product reviews I installed a mechanical microphone stand but the microphone I got is badly hissing. I think it's a Windows 10 thing. :(

Update: I just got off the phone with my power company. The bill was sent in error. So, I won't be charged over a grand and be made bankrupt. Success!

9th August 2016, 06:12 PM
Yikes, that bill-- thank Christ you managed to get that sorted out. How in the hell do you (meaning them) make a mistake like that?

I'm pleased to hear things are going well in other areas though-- awesome to hear you got a new girlfriend! And I'd love to see your bookcase arrangement once you get it all finished, call me odd but I enjoy seeing things like that since it gives me ideas of how to arrange my own. ^^ Here's hoping you can resolve the alarm situation, too-- I have to say your method seems a little convoluted if not brilliantly so.

9th August 2016, 08:59 PM
We had a power problem today ourselves, so hearing yours is being sorted out (despite how long it's been going on, which makes me want to kick the company) is a relief. I'll write about my own issue within my journal later. But...Glad to see thing are working out! And threading the needle is the first step to sewing an amazing piece, isn't it? So I'm thrilled you got that metaphorically done. That reminds me, I used to actually like sewing. I should sew something for people as gifts again.

Also, show us your new bookcase. You're really proud of that, right? And I know you got some neat stuff to put on it! Show and tell, I vote! What kind of work for a client, by the way? Don't work too hard. :)

10th August 2016, 12:34 AM
Damn, Many is, glad that got sorted out. $1500? Whoever that was supposed to go through must light their house with nothing but neon. Holy Hell, man.
Excited to see what the new update brings! Looking forward to it! :)

15th August 2016, 08:02 PM
Ups and downs really the past week. I caught a bug (we can catch micro-bugs too) which I'm very glad did not last long, only a few days. I was absolutely freezing in hot (well, for Britain) weather and thought I had the flu, so I'm lucky I didn't. My new gaming PC has also had a bug and I wasn't the only one freezing, which was very frustrating considering it's cost a lot. After much investigation I was still left stumped. I thought my CPU might have had the "Skylake bug" but then found out it only occurs in very rare cases when the CPU is under intense load, which mine rarely is. I turned down the RAM clock speed slightly in the BIOS and it hasn't frozen since. But y'know, Sod's law.

I've felt pretty numb lately. How can you describe that when you don't feel much at all? You can't. I just want to finish a job I have so I can focus more on translating the manga. Maybe when I'm consistently eating well again I'll be better on the inside too? It's happened in the past. Probably all those bad carbs when I'm on a shitty diet.

As for the work, for a couple of years now I've developed and managed a mobile app that works with a card game to learn Japanese. However, my client who makes the card game has another guy in-house who can continue making the app for cheaper than what he's been paying me, which is funny since I don't charge much at all. I don't really care much anyway. He decided to "buy me out", so I need to prepare all the assets and give them to the new programmer. That isn't as easy as it sounds because he programs differently, so I need to write documentation for him to recreate the app from scratch. On the bright side it will be a weight off my shoulders and I can focus more on other ventures. Since I'm always doped up on medication I'm usually lethargic, so I often feel pretty proud if I get to start working on something more serious. I have my own app and game projects, but I feel like I'm always at war with my mind to put pure dedication into them. I wish it was just laziness. Nearly a decade ago before I had health issues I worked pretty hard at school, my jobs, etc.

There's pink sky. So apparently tomorrow will be good. And hopefully my scanner will stop playing up now... :D

15th August 2016, 08:22 PM
Nope, scanner is effectively dead. Well there goes my chance to post concept art. Probably a better idea to continue writing down my manga translations in a document since I can't afford a new scanner. Probably out of warranty too.

Edit: Would you believe it? It was a Windows 10-specific bug (not delivering the right amount of power via USB, making it appear dead), like nearly every problem I've encountered so far. Unfortunately, I was literally forced to upgrade to Windows 10 since ASUS (motherboard manufacturer) pulled the plug on proper Windows 7 support. I'm just glad I fixed it and I don't have to buy a new scanner now. Damn W10. :aishatongue:

15th August 2016, 08:51 PM
I'm sorry to hear you've been feeling numb, Mantis. :c That's a feeling I'm very familliar with as well, so I empathize. Sometimes it feels like there's a raincloud hanging over you, and all you can really do is bear with it.

I can only speak for myself, so I'm not sure if this applies to you, but I tend to neglect looking after myself during those low periods; something as simple as having a shave, washing your hair, or wearing your favorite shirt can make all the difference. I only hope that feeling passes for you soon. You know where to find me if you ever need someone to talk to, my friend.

15th August 2016, 09:03 PM
I totally agree with that. I do neglect my hygiene a little when I feel especially low, and those things do help! Thanks Hari. The same applies to you, too. :)


Ain't it the truth, Sato. :aishalaugh:

15th August 2016, 10:30 PM
This is a feeling a lot of us can relate to, I'm sure... All I can do is hope the numbness turns to smiles soon!

15th August 2016, 11:57 PM
I certainly know that feeling, Mantis and Sota. A very familiar feeling, to be sure lol.

18th August 2016, 03:33 AM
Can't finish Outlaw Star article I've been working on tonight. It's annoying when you really want to but you have to sleep. Damn sleep. Oh well, the world isn't going to implode if I don't finish it tonight. =/

Or is it? :thinking: I guess I'll find out in another of my nightly lucid dreams.

18th August 2016, 03:37 AM
We'll all have to pray the world doesn't implode. That said, I'm glad you're putting your health first. It's better we wait an extra day than you overwork yourself and collapse, you know!

18th August 2016, 04:14 AM
Sleep is more important, man. The world probably won't implode...probably...maybe...*hides in bunker just in case* ;)

19th August 2016, 12:52 PM
Yesterday was a day and a half. I didn't actually write that much for the article I posted last night, but GIFs take a lot longer to make than you'd like to think. Of course, there's finding the exact start and end frames you want (not to mention locating the caster shells in my case), but there's also frame dropping, colour reduction, dithering and lossy compression to reduce the file size. When you're working from a Blu-ray-sized source generating the GIF takes a long time before you scale it down. Then there's preparing the source since if you want to get clips of video using VLC's record feature, you can only do this with AVI files and not MKV, so you have to demux the MKV to split it into its individual pieces, then extract the h264 video part (in my case anyway), then convert that to an AVI. Then I had to deal with server issues for a couple of hours which impeded progress. Whew. I didn't mean to rant. GIFs are serious business, man!

Anyway, I managed to wake up early (comparatively) so I can hopefully sleep earlier tonight and start correcting my sleep patterns. Oh, I also met Viagra Man this morning. He signed up once again. He loves this place. Deleted him though.

Viagra Man, Viagra Man,
Does whatever a pervert can.
Breaks the CAPTCHA before your eyes,
Displays his products to men of all size.
Look out! Here comes the Viagra Man.

I need to install new spam protection already. =/

19th August 2016, 10:06 PM
Okay, so...The GIF process went completely over my head, since I don't know what MKV even is. I do recognize some parts of it at least, so I feel good about that...But I'll have to ask you more about this at some point, since most of it just sort of...Yeah, I'm not good with this stuff. xD I'm glad you seem to have slept well. Sorry you woke up to Viagra Man. I hate that guy...especially when he barges into my emails and fun places. Seriously, why is he coming here anyway?!

But your song about him is perfect. Thank you.
I'll try adding aa stanza to it later since he goes after girls too for some reason...It's annoying.

20th August 2016, 08:06 PM
Today has been a pretty normal Saturday, though it is Sketch Saturday so I wanted to come up with something special. I've been meaning to share something extra special for some time now, but the problem is that it's inside a magazine-sized book. When I started translating the second volume of the manga, I used a method that mostly involved using a microwave and brute force. It worked, but the results were... messy. Thanks to my Photoshoppery though I was able to restore anything that was damaged in the process and come up with nice scans.

This time I don't want to leave anything to chance. I was scanning a manga I have several copies of. Although I'm going to have to destroy a beloved book for this, I want to ensure it's done right, so I ordered a few items from Amazon Prime Now around an hour ago. They're here already. I got the following: a craft knife, a craft mat, a hair dryer, a chicken/mushroom slice, a yoghurt dessert and a bottle of milk.

Though my hair is getting longer and I could do with a hair dryer to control its messiness, I got one to melt the glue in a more controlled manner than using a microwave, once I cut off the spine, which I need the craft knife/mat for. Then I'll carefully separate the pages, ready for scanning. The food... well, I'll quote Gene Starwind, who I wholeheartedly agree with:

First we've gotta eat! If we're not strong enough we'll never be able to work.

Also, milk is a secret weapon that gets my creative juices flowing. I mean, come on. If it wasn't for milk, Link wouldn't have saved the world from Ganondorf. Time to get to work on that debinding I guess... after I've eaten.

20th August 2016, 10:24 PM

Man, the more I hear about Prime Now the more it blows my mind. Glad to hear you've finally got some decent tools at your disposal; good luck Captain! :D

21st August 2016, 02:43 PM
Just as an update, my choices were good and it's become very easy to debind a book. Though it might be harder with a thick manga, this is so much easier than before which honestly surprised me. So, if you ever want to debind something, I recommend what I listed. Also, I recommend the hair dryer attachment that concentrates the hot air to a horizontal line. Every part of the book is completely intact. Sure, it's no longer a book per se, but I can just put the pages in plastic wallets and use a ring binder or something. Shame I don't think I have a second copy of the book I debound though.

21st August 2016, 05:34 PM
Having a backup plan to keep them intact safely is a good thing- and not surprising since it's you. It certainly is a shame you had to debind it though. I'm used to wanting to bind, not to debind...The practice both makes me uncertain as a bookworm, and yet super happy to have seen the results so well! And now I might have a reason to use my hair dryer someday.

25th August 2016, 01:26 PM
I had a really weird dream last night. Since my dreams are lucid and I'm in control it became weirder. So, yesterday I spent a lot of time on forum maintenance, and also learning the ins and outs of the new Outlaw Star Nexus app which is currently on the App Store but not Android yet. (Give it a few days.) So clearly Nexus has been on my mind a lot and will be until I've finished a lot of tasks. It's been on my mind enough that it managed to seep into my dreams. There were many different parts to my dream but I'll just talk about the two more important bits.

I got a call from a guy in London. He wanted me to go and help him with something. For some reason (perhaps my brain prefers tl;dw), there was a bullet train which got me there in ten minutes. Since it's about 150 miles in a straight line, but a train track would be much longer with all the turns, that's gotta be a fast train since it would normally take 3-4 hours I think. Anyway, I got there and this random guy dumped twelve cats onto me and told me they're my responsibility now. He ran off, and since I didn't want to leave these cats alone I decided to take them with me.

I got the train back, and it turned out that Outlaw Star Nexus had become very popular (my brain has a sense of humour apparently) and was now a full-time job. But there was a strange thing about these cats. They required as much attention as a child, and followed me everywhere in a straight line. So, in a small apartment it become very frustrating to work on the forum for many hours every day and also simultaneously take care of my thirteen (yes, I already have a cat) cats. I remember taking them to the park as I could walk them like dogs. (Mel meanwhile stayed at home like the lazy ass he is. Like me.) I got funny looks from people since it looked like a big march. I had become the Pied Piper of Manchester, cat (not rat) version!

Jesus, what a dream. In any case, I'm glad the app is up now (https://itunes.apple.com/us/app/outlaw-star-nexus/id1144771760), and pseudohippie has become famous in the screenshots the app makers took. They had the cheek to take a screenshot of this thread, with a picture of Sato (from Welcome to the NHK) surrounded by bin bags and pseudohippie telling me to get to sleep! Thanks for broadcasting the real me, Tapatalk! :sick:

Not much else to write. Today isn't so good; grey skies and rain. At least the cold I've had for ages doesn't seem as bad right now. I'm late working on the English manga because of this maintenance, but I'm going to make a new version of my work schedule to incorporate working on the manga into it.

25th August 2016, 02:15 PM
Hahaha, what an odd dream that was. When you mentioned all those cats, it reminded me of that The Cat Returns-eque video you showed me. :D Maybe it was a vision of future events yet to unfold...?

I actually had a similar dream involving a train-- except it was upstairs on the landing of our house for some reason. We had this track going across the landing... I have no idea, but I decided to get on board for some reason, even though I had no money for a ticket. The weird part was, this train was FULL of Chinese people. I sheepishly made my way to the back of the train (still in my dressing gown, I might add), and sat by myself. Eventually the ticket man made his way over to me, and of course I had no money to pay for one. I was about to get off (fuck knows where) but luckily, the Chinese guy next to me paid it for me. We got talking, and he told me about his plans of travelling around the world. Somehow that led to us going to his shady, run down rave club that was full of Goth looking Asians for some reason. I woke up soon after that, thankfully. :s Dreams are weird.

25th August 2016, 03:03 PM
Maybe you're right, but this has even put me off getting a second cat!
I laughed out loud when you exclaimed the Chinese people (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d_CaZ4EAexQ) part.:aishalaugh: Oh, the dreaded ticket man! Sometimes the Jaws theme plays in my head when he moves closer. What a nice guy that Chinese person was! It's funny you mention the travel stories. When I was on holiday in Greece I got friendly with an elderly Chinese woman who told me all about her travels. We didn't end up in a club or anywhere else though, fortunately. Goth-looking Asians? Everyone knows goths are always white kids! That dream was kinda funky, I must say!

On a side note, I giggled like a little girl when I saw how Steam automatically placed my collected emoticons.


If you haven't noticed, one poor goat is going to have a very painful morning. Yes, I'm really immature at times.

25th August 2016, 03:10 PM
Oh god, that was actually the first thing my eyes wandered to. xD That poor goat!

25th August 2016, 06:45 PM
I've had some pretty interesting dreams. The weirdest, and funniest, was when I was in an FPS type game, killing zombies with steak knives. I killed a good amount before I died, and got a game over screen lol.

25th August 2016, 06:52 PM
Haha, steak knives?! That sounds awesome. I hope you were throwing them. :D


25th August 2016, 07:07 PM
Steak knives, eh..? :thinking:


25th August 2016, 09:02 PM
Iirc, I was double wielding them, stabbing zombies in the head, and ripping their heads off lol. The most impractical way to attack, but it looked cool, at least lol.

15th September 2016, 01:31 PM
I'm just really stressed out lately, which irks me a little since I often approach things quite calmly. For some time I've been unemployed, minus the odd job every now and then. I decided rather than sitting around I'd get to work on my own self-employment ventures again. Without going into specifics, for six days a week my plan is to spend six hours a day working on my own projects (excluding the breaks), then around 2.5 hours a day working on Outlaw Star tasks, which is also important to me. Granted, sometimes I accomplish this quite satisfactorily, but I'm increasingly feeling rather burned out.

I don't tend to go into detail about my health, but I'm on medication which works through sedation. Due to my health conditions in general and this medication every day is a battle against fatigue. This time aside I don't complain about it very often at all. It's something I've dealt with for years, but now that I'm trying to make these businesses work out and to support the Outlaw Star community the best I can it's starting to get to me. Ironically, I've found that the best way to deal with it is to work. It takes my mind off it. Seems quite counter-productive, no? On the bright side, I've managed to fix my sleep. As a rule I get up at 8.30AM (looking to change this to 8AM soon enough) without fail. I finally found an alarm system that truly gets me up. The downside of that is that sometimes I don't get the sleep I should. So, I should make sure I get to bed at 11PM instead of 12-1AM.

I was supposed to finish a "Gwen's Day" article yesterday. No biggie if I do that today. I've stopped caring as much about being punctual, as long as I'm doing it. I'm not slacking off on supporting the community this time. Most people won't understand my "obsession". I prefer to call it a passion. The biggest disappointment of today is probably the package I got from Japan. It was supposed to have an Outlaw Star chapter inside (in a magazine) that wasn't in one of the volumes. I (or rather, my proxy) ordered it from Bookoff, it had the exact same publication date as the chapter, and said "ULTRA JUMP" in it's title, but I didn't check hard enough since I was convinced I was right on the money. Everything pointed to it being a lost chapter I was looking for.

What I got was an actual manga originally serialised in the "Young Jump" magazine that's quite frankly disturbing. Sort of a hentai, it's about a bunch of demons having sex and mutilating each other in the most grotesque manner. :aishasick: FUCK YEAH, OUTLAW STAR! Yeah, kinda shitty day so far as that cost me a bit. But if you're a treasure hunter, you can't expect diamonds every time. This was a lump of coal.

15th September 2016, 01:45 PM
Aw man, I'm really sorry to hear the 'lost chapter' was a bust. :( We'll find it someday, it's just gonna take a little longer. They have all kinds of bizarre fetishes in Japan, don't they? I've even heard stories of Japanese girls who genuinely enjoy that kind of thing. That country scares me sometimes.

15th September 2016, 01:54 PM
That could be a myth (the girls liking that), but to be completely honest I wouldn't put it past Japan if true. :s

15th September 2016, 02:25 PM
It was a first-hand account! Not all Japanese girls of course, but as least one that I know of was apparently really into vore and shotacon manga. :sick:

15th September 2016, 04:22 PM
Hope everything goes well on the employment side, man :). As for the...olsort of hentai, I'm more concerned that it's in "Young Jump" than anything else...mqn, ajapan, you're weird sometimes.
And I'm not surprised that there are people who are into Vore...there's enough on deviantart. Make sure you have mature content off on that site, kids lol.
As for Shotacon...Super Lovers exists, AND was licensed via Crunchyroll for at least 6 months before it was taken off.......that scares me sometimes

15th September 2016, 04:30 PM
Ironically, it turns out that "Young Jump" is (or was) a publication featuring mature and often very violent manga. Oh, Japan! :aishalaugh:

15th September 2016, 04:33 PM
That makes TOTAL sense!!!! Lol. Damn, Japan l. You can be scary sometimes.

15th September 2016, 05:41 PM
I'm personally thankful for your passion. Just yesterday, Hari and I were talking about what we might be doing if you hadn't brought us together through OSUK/Nexus. Scary to imagine. I hope we'd all meet anyway. :)

And yeah, Japan can be kind of...weird. I've heard stories my friend'ss grandma tells him (he's part Japanese). It'd be nice if you could get a refund or something. But at least working in general helps you feel better. I hope we all get to help with that too!

15th September 2016, 07:21 PM
Funnily enough, 'Berserk' is published in a monthly magazine called 'Young Animal', a manga that frequently has scenes of extremely graphic violence, including sexual violence. What's with the 'Young' prefix, seriously? o_O You're giving consumers the wrong idea. Young Jump is worse, since Shonen Jump is known for shonen manga aimed at a middle-schooler demographic. Imagine being a poor kid who asked his parents to buy him Jump, only to get demon gore porn instead.

23rd September 2016, 12:10 AM
Decided that health is more important than finishing an article. Will complete tomorrow. I got four hours last night so I can't jeopardise it this time. I'll admit I've procrastinated a little too, but not just on this community's tasks. Sometimes I just have these negative spells and I don't want to talk to anybody and feel that I'm losing control of things. Which is annoying because what I want to do and what I should do to advance in life is staring me in the face. It's as if my subconscious wants me to succumb to mediocrity.

Fortunately, they are only spells and I hope that tomorrow I'll have a lot more energy. But even when I'm working on a new business venture I find that I'm increasingly keeping them to myself. Talking to my family about any of this is counterproductive. My dad wouldn't care full stop, but I actually prefer that to how my mother is. My mother would ask questions like, "What if the guy doesn't pay you?", "Are you sure this idea will make you money?", "Are you actually working on it?", etc. Always discouraging me. If I start a diet plan she'll constantly ask if I'm checking my weight. She'd even go as far as looking in my rubbish for a takeaway or any other snack when she visits me once a week. That wouldn't be completely terrible if she wasn't a huge hypocrite. Every month she says something like, "This week I'm starting on a new diet!" Days later I see that she's been buying junk food, but I don't judge her for it. Does she belittle me to feel better about herself or something? Hell if I know. I just feel that if I had disconnected myself from my family I could be doing better in life right now. But it would break my mother's heart. I'm the youngest sibling and she'd find it hard to let go of me. Plus, I'm always the bad guy if I do anything that offends her. She always gossips about it. I guess I wouldn't have to care about that if I broke contact with my whole family.

Wow, that was quite the digression and rant. I'll probably sleep better having got that off my chest. Speaking of which, time to hit the hay...

(Who is) Lobo
23rd September 2016, 02:26 AM
Decided that health is more important than finishing an article.

That right there, amigo. Never forget that one.

And...let's just say I think I totally get the parental-unit-themed lamentations. Mine mean well, but as I'm sure is the case with yours they don't really know how much the work landscape has changed in the 30+ years since they've actually had to look for a job.

And family is good, but...I think you're getting to that place where one inevitably arrives: interactions with the parents more and more become the exception, rather than the norm. Meet-ups are mostly around holidays. I love my family, but man I can't really be under the same roof with them anymore for more than a few days...and even then, only with a few months of healthful "buffer" in between visits!

& hey man, remember if you're having one of those spells, it's ok to let them run their course for a while...but when you finally need a kick in the pants, when you actually know exactly what it is you need to do, just picture Hilda grabbing you by the collar, lookin' you in the eyes (umm...eye) and sayin' "You just gonna' keep runnin' away?"

You know the only response to that. :beer:

23rd September 2016, 06:09 AM
I'm glad to read you're putting your health first! Actually, I've been in bed all day ill (have a mild fever and everything!). Seeing you focus on your health reminds men to focus on mine too and not let my computer addiction keep me from getting the rest I need!

That said, I'm sorry to hear about the negativity spell...but as the name implies, it's (hopefully) just a spell. I look forward to you smiling lots again soon!

And rants are what journals are for, right? Now to go to sleep myself, following your good example! Lots of hugs. :D

23rd September 2016, 03:58 PM
Much appreciated Lobo, thanks. Yeah, they do tend to put more faith in one of my sisters who also does freelance, but she works in a more conventional face-to-face manner. So perhaps you're right there. "Digital" jobs aren't seen as seriously by the older generations. I've gotta say though, I've found searching for work online more stressful than in the "real world", but that's probably because I've only really done menial work in shops in the past, where I was accepted quite quickly.

I've already distanced myself from my family slightly, but I'm finding that I need to do it in baby steps (how ironic) rather than all at once. I used to see my family on two days a week. I made it clear recently that I'm limiting that to once a week and my mother's just had to deal with it. I think once I've got more things off the ground, I'm earning a good income and my parents recognise that, I'll limit it to once a month. She already tries to use emotional blackmail, like "Do you not like seeing me anymore?", despite reiterating that I need to dedicate more time to responsibilities.

Haha, that's a good idea regarding Hilda. Kind of like one of Mr T's motivational messages. I'm gonna keep this in mind. :beer:

June, it's difficult, but it seems I really have to go cold turkey about a lot of things. It's different for everyone, but setting that annoying 8.30AM alarm has worked for me. Though I did take a small nap partway through the day yesterday (since I only had four hours), I've yet to fail getting up on time thanks to it. You might need something different. There are dozens of ideas online and I'm not sure what would work for you specifically.

I do feel a bit better today, though I almost had a major problem with Amazon. So, I ordered an item two months ago from a marketplace seller. The courier never left a "sorry we missed you" note when I wasn't in and they tried to deliver. I had no idea what happened and the seller wasn't replying. I raised a dispute which lasted a long time, and the seller did respond to Amazon (allegedly), I was given a tracking number and Amazon claimed it had been delivered to me. Baffled, I checked it out on the courier's tracking website and it had been delivered to a guy called M. Ball in a different city. "What the hell?", I thought. I was certain this was the seller since other than me, the courier would only allow a signature from the sender and I assume it had been "returned to sender". Yet the seller kept claiming it had been delivered to me. Amazon sided with him twice and denied my claims, and subsequently a refund meaning the seller would have got free money from me. I guess the guy's name is fitting since he's a fucking scrote.

I was just about ready to request Amazon to disable my account when a call centre operator assured me she'd appeal my case and get me my money, so I've not made my request. I've placed hundreds of Amazon orders over the last couple of years and I'm a Prime member, but if I can't trust a business, I won't do business with them either. I start to dislike a company that won't support a customer over a business. The next few days will determine whether they'll restore enough faith for me to stay with them. :thinking:

23rd September 2016, 04:21 PM
Does the M stand for Mangy? Because he sounds like a right mangy balls. :@

27th September 2016, 12:42 AM
Big companies man, they get away with a lot of shadey shenanigans.

27th September 2016, 06:25 PM

Nothing truly special going on. Yesterday I missed posting for Mantis' Merch Monday, but I was seeing family. I only really watch TV shows with my mother. We just finished the fourth series of 24 (which I've probably watched 24 times), good stuff. I think tonight I'll continue working on the OSN promo video for YouTube. It's been too long. Tired... though that reminds me, I've got a Red Bull in the fridge. Sorted.


27th September 2016, 06:33 PM
24 sittings of 24...now that's a fun tongue twister in it's own way (okay, maybe not a tongue twister...still an entertaining thought though.) Is that more or less time than you've watched Outlaw Star?[emoji14]

27th September 2016, 06:53 PM
I've definitely watched more of 24 than Outlaw Star, if you're counting this as total hours spent. In terms of whole show watches, Outlaw Star wins, but only because Outlaw Star is about 8.5 hours, whereas 24 is about 140 hours.

7th October 2016, 02:03 AM
This post pleases me, excellent use of ze gifs.

Are you talking about the Kiefer Sutherland 24?
Or is there a really cool 24 show I have yet to hear about?

7th October 2016, 02:55 PM
Kiefer Sutherland 24. It's so cool you don't even know it's cool. :chibigenegrin2:

7th October 2016, 11:06 PM
For my birthday the main highlight was going to a restaurant like most years, but I'm totally cool with that. I don't have high standards about this stuff. I got some clothes from parents/grandparents, some cash from my grandparents, some chocolates (not great for the diet situation, but I'll bite) and a book about the history of video games (this will be a nice read) that one of my sisters got from New York. Another sister ordered a gift for me which hasn't come yet. My third sister got me a spectacular air guitar. Seriously though, she never buys for anybody and always asks for money. You know the type.

I spent most of the evening watching The Walking Dead. I've really slacked off lately when it comes to OSN responsibilities, so I'll get my ass to work tomorrow. Speaking of that, I've spent quite some time figuring out what I should do, project-wise. One option was a quiz site that I've been quite enthusiastic about. Sadly though, I hit a wall when it comes to platforms. By that I mean software to run the website on. As a framework I'd use WordPress. But as for running the quizzes themselves, there's no real solution available for people who wish to do this independently. I'd be happy to pay for proprietary software I can run from a dedicated server, but any solution of this kind looks like it's from the bloody late '90s. The only other option is a middleman I'd have to pay through my nose to use.

These middlemen handle the bandwidth, so you don't have to worry about server overloads. However, you have to pay a lot for every 10,000 quiz uses. Let's say $30 per 10,000 "impressions", as they call them, or quiz completions. When quizzes go viral on Facebook, they spread like wildfire, so I could have a few of my quizzes gaining 100,000 completions and I'd be paying a grand for it. I planned to add over a hundred quizzes to my site regularly. With advertising that could work out for me but I just don't know and it's too much of an investment for a very small start-up. It's all very frustrating, and why bother with a path that's always pissing you off? Eh, I don't know. If it wasn't for those middlemen with their flashy quiz services creating a monopoly I'd be on my way to creating this quiz site.

So, my plan B (which I planned to do alongside the quiz site anyway) is game development. First project was the game for pets. Mel's such a lazy game tester though. I don't know if it would be feasible to make a pet game when your pet can't be arsed playing it and subsequently you don't get any feedback during development. Looks like it's the visual novel game. It's nonlinear and will use complicated interactive story development with lots of variables and alternative endings, so I think articy:draft (http://store.steampowered.com/app/230780/) will help A LOT with this. Thanks to this software I found, I'm really excited to get to work on it since programming the game will be much less cumbersome.

It will be a gal game. I think I'll get some hate for this.

7th October 2016, 11:23 PM
You'll have to tell me how articy is- that said, you're reminding me I'd had lots of plans for visual novels/gal games, and haven't gotten much done. The only programs I've used for it so far are Tyranobuilder (very easy to deal with, paid program, visual interface) and Ren'py (free/open source, more code based and complicated for me). I'd be curious what articy is like in general, so definitely tell me how it is. And how you found it, for that matter, makes me curious. I look forward to the games you make, though! Er, the gal game, which might sound weird from a girl normally...But...It's not that weird. Anyway, no hate. Why do people hate gal games anyway?

It's good you enjoyed your day overall. While one of your sisters wasn't very good about gifts, at least the others were willing to do something. Some people are just greedy. I like the way you worded her lack though. And that book you got sounds like a nice one! Sounds like something that'd be good to know for a game enthusiast in general- and it could even give ideas for game development in regards to bringing older pieces back into the present or towards the future. I wonder why some people always feel a need to give clothes as a gift though? My grandmother is constantly giving me clothes. Money is probably easier to deal with. Hopefully the clothes won't go to waste when you lose the weight you're dieting for! (By the way, your diet pun for the chocolate, implied or not, was genius. :D)

Let's hope the rest of this new year of your life is great and prosperous. :D

13th October 2016, 05:42 PM
Thanks, I'll be sure to do so, June. Well, gal games are often associated with hentai which isn't always the case, which subsequently leads to the belief that their players are all freaky, creepy otaku! While I'm sure there's a little truth to that, a lot of people of all kinds enjoy these games. And I'm no freaky, creepy otaku. Honest. ;) Yes, I agree about gifts, and yes, grandparents always get you clothes! I used to hate that as a kid, but nowadays I enjoy their choices. The sister who couldn't get my gift to me on time brought it today. The sad thing is, she put more effort into my presents than probably everyone else but they're pretty much no good for me. The first was one of those VR headsets that holds phones, except despite the product description saying it would, it doesn't hold my iPhone and it just slides about, so I'll have to give it back to her since I can't use it! The other is a Pop Vinyl figure. I appreciate the thought she put into it but I hate these figures with an undying passion. Telling her that would be rude so I'll have to sell it. No point in holding onto a figure I'll never put on display.

So, updates. First of all, sorry I've been nearly totally inactive lately, guys! (No posts in the last five days, eek!) On Tuesday (and on Monday I was heavily researching it and seeing the doctor) I started on a new diet plan that's officially supported by the NHS called Lipotrim, because I really need to shred some pounds over the next few months and I'm hoping to become trim in six months. It's a bit of an extreme diet and you can only eat a few products. Well, let me tell you, the ones I've had so far are fucking horrible. But I'm sticking to it. I have the next week free, so I'm essentially procrastinating to aid my health journey! You see, when I've been at my computer in the past it hasn't helped health matters. Food ads everywhere, e-mails asking me if I want to order some food I got ages ago again! The first week of this diet is very difficult so I'm trying to distract myself by firstly avoiding my computer (which is where I always ordered takeaways in the past) and secondly, keeping myself busy even if that's by watching television and playing video games.

I face a bit of a dilemma though. I don't want to see this forum's activity crumble (mmm, apple crumble, wait, fuck!) and I'm not helping matters by staying away from my PC. (Even using my phone is just as bad since it's bombarded by restaurant e-mails and text messages daily.) So I'm going to try to spend a couple of hours every day on the forum now since I don't want a repeat of last year's OSN downfall. I'm sure by Tuesday the headaches will have subsided, my taste buds will have stopped giving a damn, my cravings will have weakened greatly and I'll have formed a habit of eating these nasty meal replacements. They make gruel look like a luxurious delicacy, but it'll be worth it.

I'd like to ask if you guys could post a little more during this next week. It'll help out a lot, and I'll try to do the same in the evening to do my bit.

13th October 2016, 07:19 PM
I do my best to post every day, but it can be difficult- because it's a matter of also having something TO post. I won't give up though! I'll figure something out that I can post about more easily. Something...Maybe.

I wish we had Lipotrim here. According to half the people I know that know about my anosmia, I shouldn't have a sense of taste at all. I think I do though. But hey, I might be able to down it without gagging- and if I could, it'd be nice. But...Sadly, Lipotrim is a UK thing. So I'll have to keep doing bad research for the US version that must exist. My reasons aren't the same for wanting to slim down- but I do want to. And I'm kind of at a plateau right now (and I already barely eat much in the day as is...) Plus, it sounds like it might awkwardly help my eating disorder. Which is a complicated thing all by itself. That might be my imagination though.

Anyway...Let's all do our best to post a lot- but try not to post too much about food. :D

13th October 2016, 08:13 PM
I do try to post every day, but working nights can make it difficult. I usually sleep all day the day I'm working, then go into work (I can post a bit here and there on breaks and such), then sleep all day the next day. But I' will try to post more, man.
Especially now that my PC is fixed.
I'm so damn happy. Especially since the Overwatch Halloween mode is out. I LOVE Junkenstein's Revenge. It's such a fun little mode, and it has Soldier:76 as one of the 4 characters you can play as, so I can play as my main if no one else is playing him lol.

13th October 2016, 09:08 PM
You're a braver man than me for starting such a diet, but good on ya for doing what needs to be done. The first few weeks might seem like hell at first, but you're going to feel so much better by the end of it. Good luck! :)

Also, for a bit of extra encouragement: http://imgur.com/r/progresspics

14th October 2016, 03:46 AM
For me the issue with making threads is having a thread to MAKE. I make them when I can think of them, I just...Can't really think of some new ones very often. Half the ones I think of are just rehashes of ones we already had (which I've done, despite that). I'll keep trying to think of some, though!

14th October 2016, 10:46 AM
Sometimes you can 'cheat' by looking at other forums for inspiration.

14th October 2016, 04:11 PM
You, good sir, are a genius. I should do that. Even if I only use like two other forums that are also niches...they have general areas. Surely that can help!

30th November 2016, 08:58 AM
An update... of sorts! Gotta tell you though, the last week has been a cluster of WTFs, and then some. And before then I've felt detached from a lot of things, so I wasn't doing half as much as I would normally do on my computer. Something I wanted to make clear though at the start since this has been completely blown off schedule, this month's MotM closure is going to be moved forward in its schedule by four days (and hopefully started in the next few hours), I think. Which would mean the polls will close around four days into next month, and have a total poll length of about five days. So, the poor bugger who is elected will have a somewhat shorter MotM status next month. But back to craziness...

If I went deep into why I'm hospitalised right now, it would be a post longer than I'd care to write. The specifics aren't that important. There's something off in my brain and they spent a long time installing something very large around and in my brain, and they can use this to read the electrical levels of each part. In some ways it's kinda cool. I also volunteered to help out this science team learn more about brain activity and sleep too. They're such a bunch of nice guys. I feel like they're friends already. Thing is, wearing this helmet-like device can be pretty painful, so sometimes I have to ask them to put me on morphine, so a lot of the time I'm too tired to do anything, even watch TV shows. But sometimes I'm lucky like now and I can do stuff online.

I intended to finish a promotional video for Outlaw Star Nexus before I came here. While I often felt like hell and didn't complete it, I've done the next best thing and got a pro to make a nice video about the forums and Facebook.


I also found some nice ways to market the video, so pretty much every Outlaw Star video on my channel will offer a redirect to this video and hopefully pull in some new outlaws. It's working, right? Anyway, that's the gist of it, my brainy adventures and trying to spend more time here now if I can find more ways to stay awake. Looking forward to it, and to meeting newcomers!

30th November 2016, 04:42 PM
I still wanna see the one you made yourself eventually, but it's also just good to see you online and seeming well.

It's also great they're more like friends now! Sounds like it'd make things easier to deal with. :)

30th November 2016, 11:59 PM
Do what I did Mantis. Go Vegan. You'll reduce a lot of health issues quickly and lose weight as well. I got back into running and am already close to matching my mile time when I was at my prime. Also I got a lot more endurance as well and feel less tired when working out.

1st December 2016, 09:41 AM
Hope everything goes well with the hospitalization, man. But at least you have some new pals there.
And that's a really nice video! And I'm famous! :0 lol. But I agree with June. I'd like to see yours, too, when you finish!

1st December 2016, 05:30 PM
Haha, thanks but no thanks, Sparky. While I appreciate the suggestion I've always been a carnivore at heart, or at least, a big lover of meat! Yeah, the guys are cool. One of them was eager to tell me about his time in Japan, and another one was offering me some anime suggestions and talking about his trips around the world. They're all eager to bring me things like hot chocolate (I'm not a coffee or tea guy), but unfortunately I've had an awful stomach for the past two days. Perhaps until now anyway. I was completely out for a few hours until very recently, just burned out, but now I feel better. So all's good here. :beer:

Sure, I'll try to finish the video by the end of next month, but I'll still be here for a while and my parents are expecting me for some of Christmas. I do miss Mel and I hope the petsitter is treating him well. She'd better be for what they get paid! :@

3rd December 2016, 09:40 AM
I've mostly been recovering over the past day. The science team is quite respectful and I've been allowed to rest until next week, when I'll continue helping them with their research. Other than the occasional headache and not enjoying the hospital menu it's been okay. I'll admit, I can be picky with some food, but their menus don't offer a lot of choice. And since my jaw's been hurting from the operation I've gone with softer options earlier on like sandwiches, and having the same stuff every day is... meh. Today I chose some new things. I wonder how the upcoming sausage hot pot will be. :thinking:

I'm seeing my parents again today and tomorrow as they're staying for the weekend. It'll be nice. Good talk, playing some quiz games, and they're bringing over some goodies too, like Walker's Marmite crisps. Bet you haven't tried them. Certainly a hidden gem in the world of savoury snacks! I also look forward to posting more in the forums later since I'm really happy about all of your activity, and trying to do my bit too. Then there's also working on my game script. More on that another time. :D

15th December 2016, 09:59 AM
Okay, so it's been exactly three weeks since I arrived here, and guess what? In about one hour I'm the hell out of here. It won't be complete freedom as I'll have to stay with my parents for a while, but that will be a helluva lot better. Especially with who moved into a room near me about two days ago. If he moved in from the beginning I'd have probably overdosed on morphine by now. Most of this post is really going to come across as mean, but really, if you were kept awake for ages by this with multiple disturbances during the time you could get to sleep too, you'd understand.

I've dubbed the patient Doofy.


Okay, it's cruel to do this, I get that. But he sounds just like him. I haven't seen him, but it could actually be Doofy for all I know. The problems he presents are most likely not his fault which makes me feel bad, but holy shit, I've almost been driven insane. You know those toys we got as kids, where you press a button and they kept repeating the same sound effect for a while? It was like that with this guy. Except he kept shouting "NURSE!" every second, often for a minute at a time, then stopping for a few seconds and restarting. So, "NURSE! NURSE! NURSE! NURSE! NURSE! NURSE! NURSE! NURSE! NURSE! NURSE! NURSE! NURSE! NURSE! NURSE! NURSE! NURSE! NURSE!" I felt like I was going to explode at times. :aishalivid: And if he has some level of decision making, he is highly inconsiderate since all the nurses here are always working their asses off. I can say that much from being here for the longest time of any patient to have this operation. (I've been told I'm the record holder.) This guy is asking for a nurse nearly 24/7 when they already have enough to deal with already, and to top it off, he also drives them insane with his repetitive goofy voice on a loop, like how a damaged needle on a record player would be.

My only way to deal with this whole problem was to play my music at full blast from my laptop's tinny speakers, with bags under my eyes. Still quite loud, and amazingly, the nurses couldn't hear it much at all from the other side of my door which goes to show how loud Doofy's inane babbling was. I'd have worn headphones but it can't really be done with the bandages on my head.

So, there you go. That's the gist of the tale of Doofy. Sometimes, like a toy with its own "easter eggs", he had a few variations of the sounds he made, like saying "I KNOW YOU CAN HEAR ME!" No shit, Doof. Well I wish him the best of luck when I'm miles from here. Now if my worst nightmare occurs and he's here for the full duration of my next (hopefully final) surgery stay, I'll probably be found hanged in the nerdiest fashion...


15th December 2016, 04:35 PM
Is it too early to say welcome home since you'll be with family? It's good they'll be helping you recoup, though. And at least it's goodbye Doofy. :)

16th December 2016, 08:51 AM
I certainly am now, so thanks June.

Well, that was... really something. And by that I'm talking about another tale in the dreamworld. But I'll round to that in a minute.

The rest of yesterday didn't go entirely smoothly. I had a bit of a fight with my family before leaving, but it's a story that's probably worth leaving alone. I suggested we should probably just forget about it all which seems to have worked. Before arriving home we went for a meal.

There's this restaurant that's only a stone's throw from my home. It must have only been two months ago since I last went but they're a pizzeria now too. I figured I'd give them a go. It was a pretty good meaty pizza, but I had to leave a slice. I'm not that good at eating loads of food at once. I did have a rocky road sundae though. Delicious.

I just spent most of the evening doing general stuff online. It was nice to get into a proper bed again around midnight. I didn't foresee the surreal dream, even though I seem to have quite a few of those. This one stood out a bit though. And it felt like it lasted years. Too bad I can't write for that long... eh? :D (Oh boy, this is going to sound like the worst "original" Fanfiction story, but from my weakening memories of a dream it's not like I intend to write a bestseller here...)

I lived in a different apartment, it seemed. So I came home feeling absolutely famished for some reason, and I found these two thuggish guys in my kitchen who had ransacked the place and eaten every last bite of my food, worst of all the pizza that I had lying on the worktop but was delivered the same day. (I do like cold pizza.) As you'd perhaps understand, I was livid, but these men proceeded to mock me. They also started shoving me. I knocked one of them down. Unfortunately, he seemed to land on his head at the worst place which impaled it, since blood began to leak out. I started freaking out and demanded that the other guy call an ambulance.

After making the call, he did a runner. I was left waiting with this lifeless man on my floor. Yeah... he seemed kinda dead. He died on his way to the hospital, apparently. After a large investigation, due to the bizarre circumstances and having acted in self-defence I received a greatly reduced sentence for manslaughter, incarcerated for a month. Greater damage to me was done though. Everybody in my neighbourhood thought I was a killer and my family (perhaps not my real-world family) no longer seemed to trust me. That was it, then. I packed my bags and parted with my past life.

Over the next few years I travelled the world, taking all different kinds of jobs. This wasn't Earth as I know it, though. There were meetings and partings. I met some like-minded folks along the way who seemed happy to travel with me. (No idea why. I'm not that interesting.) There was even a crazy weeaboo who tagged along, who I frankly felt quite relieved to part with. In fact, a lot of people did seem to like anime, but to a much lesser extent.

There was this happy-go-lucky girl who I befriended since nearly the start of my journey. Over time it became evident that she liked me. While a good friend, I didn't plan to let that progress and kept it platonic. I met some real oddballs. There was this guy who was crazy about mecha anime. Weirdest part about him was that he started transforming into a real man-sized mech. "What the fuck?" indeed. Well, that girl set her sights on him/it and soon enough they got together. Good for them.

Obviously I cut out a lot of filler and like most dreams it was foggy at best. I can't remember much after that, just traversing a strange world which seemed to become more and more deserted, also entering some gunfights along the way. Here's the interesting part though: if I had actually eaten that last slice of pizza last evening I may not have had this dream at all.


I kinda like how the pizza slice conveniently has a dreamlike aura.

16th December 2016, 11:46 PM
That's quite an interesting dream, for sure. I've had a few dreams about being in jail myself. It's certainly odd how the brain works, and how dreams happen.

Glad to see you doing better, man!
As for Doofy, sadly, people like that are common in the hospital. Some times they're just confused, but a lot of the time they're just being assholes for the sqks of being assholes.

17th December 2016, 10:26 AM
Yeah, that's what bothered me the most about Doofy, aside from keeping me up throughout the night. He just sounded really inconsiderate as the staff already seemed to take considerable time to attend to every patient. I can't imagine how demanding these jobs already are. No doubt he had some genuine problems he couldn't control, but he also had a problem he seemingly could too.

I spent a while this morning thinking about dreams too. You see, I had another dream last night and it was terrifying, so much so that I almost cried over it. It's not the kind of thing most men like to admit and crying after an awful dream is something that's only happened to me a couple of times in my life (excluding my earlier childhood of course), but when you're somebody who does have lucid dreams and you assume you're awake in the dream and have control of your actions they can be a huge downer. I know there's a dream thead so I'll probably post my next dream there, but with the way this one made me feel I just felt it deserved a place in my journal.

It took place in a civil war of some kind, but if I remember correctly a lot of the dream was set in a concentration camp. Or perhaps that was at the end when I lost all hope of reaching some kind of a resolution. Earlier in the dream though battles between resistance fighters and government death squads were taking place, with many innocent civilians getting caught in the crossfire. I can't remember how since my dreams always "fog up" after a short while unless I write them down immediately, but I did have some level of responsibility, or a way to save these innocents. But I couldn't. I didn't. And for that reason I felt awful, because eventually these guerilla forces and the innocents were captured and taken to that concentration camp if I am remembering it right. It wasn't only men and women, but children too; whole families.

Those who took a bullet to the head were the lucky ones. Others were maimed and mutilated in the most brutal ways I thought possible. It wasn't the bludgeoning or seeing the entrails slide apart from those who were ripped open and chuckled into a pile, but the blood-curdling moans from those who watched their loved ones suffer these awful fates that got to me the most. Or those who hadn't quite been finished off and were a quivering mess, trying their utmost to utter their last words but only mustering a retching murmur. Before I was somebody who for some reason felt a sense of control, but now I was broken and could only watch this madness in horror.

Perhaps interestingly, I had almost become a quivering mess myself when I woke up. You see, I suffer from more serious seizures from time to time, but one of the largest causes for my seizures is stress and the nightmare really hit me hard. My body was tensed up. I almost felt paralysed and I could only prepare for yet another terrifying experience that always follows the larger seizures. Somehow I managed to calm myself and avoid having one. I felt like I dodged a bullet. After having a "warning" like this though, I know it will soon come. It might be later, tomorrow, or next week, but it'll happen. They always do.

Often people wake up in a cold sweat after a nightmare. People experience all different physiological changes from dreams which is interesting to me. Has anybody actually died from what transpired from a dream? It wouldn't surprise me. I believe we sometimes underestimate the power of the mind's eye and how sometimes we become our minds' slaves. One thing I miss about the hospital I stayed at for three weeks is the research team I worked with most days. Although primarily they studied memory they also had a strong interest in dreams, and this would have been an interesting thing to talk to them about.

I'm not sure what caused my nightmare. Before my internet went haywire (and fortunately it chose to do so when finished), last night I watched an anime film with Hari called Jin-Roh. We find ways to do this in sync and it's pretty fun. It was a great film, though a lot of themes were similar to my nightmare's. On the other hand however, I think most of it had a message of hope rather than despair. More likely I think it was that awful and fairly recent scene from The Walking Dead (if you've seen it you'll know exactly what I'm referring to) that I ended up watching again yesterday when replying to a comment on a YouTube video of it, and also a documentary about the survivor of a North Korean concentration camp that I watched in hospital, from a recommendation by one of those researchers who I became friendly with. In both of these there wasn't anything but suffering. With all that said, I think the idea that what you've seen on TV (or whatever) will greatly influence a dream is a bit half-baked. I believe it runs deeper than that.

This is an especially depressing entry, but sugarcoating a journal defeats the purpose of sharing it. It isn't all doom and gloom—the experience was morbidly fascinating.

17th December 2016, 03:54 PM
The thing with dreams is they're (supposedly) the brain's method of problem solving as you sleep. That said, I rarely remember mine. When I was little, I thought my dreams were a past life's memories. I think I'll stick to the problem solving theory... perhaps the dream was telling you the media it reminded you of hit you more than you thought? I'm no expert and dreams are confusing, so I'll be happier not trying to figure them out- yours or mine. That said, I have had dreams with characters from shows and stories before. So I doubt it's not partially related to things we see. Hard to say, though.

As for nearly crying from it...that's rough. Big hugs from me! There's nothing wrong with a man crying. Then again, I also feel self conscious crying (but supposedly it should be fine for a woman. Huh). Supposedly, crying and admitting your feelings is a show of strength. So you're very strong for admitting it, and sharing. :)

19th December 2016, 09:08 AM
Damn, that's rough. Though I can understand almost crying thanks to a dream/nightmare. I've had very lucid dreams that made me almost cry myself.
Speaking of dreams, I remember one I had years ago where I was in jail with Gene, and it was this giant quarry like area, and you could leqve freelyc as long as you came back (pretty sure had something shackled to me to make sure in did come back lol.) I remember it being, iddly, a really cool dream, despite...ua know, the incarceration and whatnot lol.

Also, when I read s, I immediately thought of that scene from Walking Dead, too lol.

19th December 2016, 04:28 PM
Man, what a terrifying dream! :( It sounds like Jin-Roh might have had some influence, there. At least you didn't dream about ogres, I know how much you hate those...


20th December 2016, 09:56 AM
That's an interesting dream too, pseudo. It also made me think of The Walking Dead!

When Morgan was kept in a prison but it turned out he wasn't actually locked inside at all and he could leave freely. Even after this, he decided to stay inside the prison as a form of atonement. Perhaps your dream had a similar meaning.


Come on Hari, don't do that man! Ogres are HORRIBLE things, ya know? I always disliked that Shrek dude. Oh, and speaking of crying, I kinda did that the other day. I was laughing so hard I cried and my cheeks were hurting like hell. Hari and I make such hilarious in-jokes when chatting on Steam. Felt like I was going to die from laughter. But with in-jokes, they're the kind of things that others wouldn't understand. Hari's one of the old timers on the forum (so are many of those who are still keeping this place afloat, mind, so we should talk on Steam!), and we've had plenty of time to create our own stories or jokes about other things to share every now and then.

So, Christmas is coming soon. My dad's been talking about going on holiday next Christmas. Not the most sociable guy, but I'll admit I was feeling a bit green with envy, until he invited me to go along with him so I might take him up on the offer. It would be weird to spend Christmas so differently but I've got time to think about that. I had another "episode" last night. And you'd think in eight years of witnessing the illness my own mother would learn a lot about it, but it seems she doesn't know how to handle a problem as well as she thinks. For a period I wasn't able to speak. So, being the expert she is, she noticed this and started asking me questions. Wait a minute, come again? Okay, so, imagine you had a mute friend. You wouldn't start asking them questions in a fashion that requires an immediate verbal response, would you? No, that's just silly. When will she learn? She pissed me off so much, I just stormed off and collapsed on my bed, only planning to "cool off" until the seizure had worn off, but somehow I ended up dozing off from around 8PM-8.30PM to around 4AM. Yep, been awake since then and it's almost eleven.

Generally it's been busy, living with family. Reasons like the above and the usual squabbling between my parents are why I tend to dislike staying with family, but I force a smile and deal with that stuff over the Christmas period. From today until next year while staying here (family's house) most of the day I'll go to my home for the afternoon as I get to see my cat (not to mention feed him and not continue paying the petsitter) and enjoy some alone time. I think I'll also spend some time on character design which I'm doing for a video game which is recently in the pipeline. Writing biographies and creating preliminary appearances is more time-consuming than I expected. Not much else to add right now. I had a decent dream which as I said I'll add to the dream thread this time. I wouldn't say it was good or bad. Just odd.

25th December 2016, 03:23 AM
Family time becomes quite the... experience when we become adults. Hang in there boyo.

You should take the trip if you can, jump on those opportunities when they pop up.
It tends to become a worthwhile experience when one does that. And POST PICS IF YOU DO!
A photo bolg of the Misadventures of Mantis sounds a bit overdue, lol.

And proud of you dude, keep up the effort on your gaming endeavors.
We're eager to see your work come together!

27th January 2017, 02:15 PM
For well over a month now I haven't really been so active with most things. I don't tend to talk much about my health unless it's serious (like surgery) so I won't whine about this for long. I saw the doctor yesterday and told her about how I'm unsure of what I have, but probably not a common cold as it's been going on for several weeks and I've had fevers, frequent congestion which is bloody disgusting and general discomfort. She told me I probably have sinusitis with polyps. She gave me antibiotics (no surprise, but not unwelcome) and a nasal spray. :sick: I also have this cough syrup literally called "Mucus Cough", and it tastes as bad as it sounds. So I've felt really groggy and nasty for the past month, and as such haven't done with OSN or many other things. But at least the magic bullet labelled "antibiotics" will patch me right up! (Possibly followed by "hairy tongue" like last time, ick.)

Though intermittent I ended up staying at my family's for longer than I expected, but now I'm finally back to just seeing them one day a week. I've been asked to go on holiday with them in April (to Portugal maybe?), but knowing I wanted to save money for outsourcing people for my projects and feeling increasingly pressured for an answer I refused the offer. Maybe I'll go with them (wherever they'll go) in July as they go abroad three times a year. It'll give me more time to think and work out the finance.

Although I was originally critical of its different gameplay approach, I'm thinking of getting Resident Evil VII to play tonight. It doesn't look like a Resident Evil per se, but it does look fun which is a step up from tiresome previous entries, with Chris Redfield flexing his muscles in his "I'M DA MAN!" poses...

27th January 2017, 10:27 PM
Mucus Cough...Why are they naming it after one of the points of many cough syrup- to help deal with mucus? I had a throat bug recently (like over the weekend, I think it was?). I lived on cough drops that I use on and off anyway- they're a special kind of cough drop for people who have chronic dry mouth and don't salivate enough. I've come to find them tasting meh at best, but they work fast and keep me from choking on air when I need them.

Polyps sound painful. So does hairy tongue though (seriously, what IS that?). I'm sorry to hear you've had such bad sinusitis. When I get it, it usually only lasts a week with medicine (I've had month-long, but that was because i was mistaking the headaches for migraines and I didn't have any notable nasal congestion that i could recognize. My doctor kinda just stared at me like I was an idiot that time).

I think it's nice you're spending time with family and get to go on trips with them. I want to leave the country someday too, even if it's just going to Canada for a day. If you go on a trip with them again, take lots of pictures! :D

31st January 2017, 04:34 PM
I suppose it gets the point across? Kinda like Mel right now. "PAAAYYYYY ATTENTION TO MEEEEEE!" by sitting in front of my screen all the time. =/ I'm feeling a little better now, but I don't want to jinx this. I've still been feeling pretty weird though, more so over the past couple of days. Every now and then I'm having this odd sensation, like everything around me is so small and out of focus. It's odd. Hairy tongue's a weird thing. I think it usually comes after antibiotics (so great, maybe I have another "hairy tongue" coming), everything seems fine and dandy but then your tongue starts developing some kind of film on its surface. It felt so sticky and nasty. I just had to deal with it and ignore it, but nothing tasted great for the whole duration which was probably over a week, if not longer.

Anyway, health issues aside things are okay right now. I watched Audition with Hari last night, heh. I have little to say about that...


31st January 2017, 05:54 PM
So, a video of the "Top things you should not Google" appeared in my subscriber list on YouTube. Naturally I searched for one of them. Just saying, don't search for Porsche Girl. Holy hell that shit's nasty. :aishawtf:

1st February 2017, 10:27 PM
I've had "Hairy Tongue" before, and it IS a very weird sensation, to be sure. Nothing has any taste, either, which kinda stinks.
And I think I know that feeling you've had with things feeling small before, too. That usually happens when I'm tired, and haven't had much sleep, so maybe that has something to do with it?

9th February 2017, 09:54 AM
So the night before last I was lying down about to get some sleep when something fell onto my tongue. It was a little chunk from the back of one of my front teeth. "Oh, shit." I booked the next appointment possible and this morning I travelled to the dentist. I didn't get back that long ago, but I got up hours earlier than the previous morning so hopefully this will help me correct my sleep. But as for correcting my teeth, turns out the cavity wasn't as big as I thought it was. I mean it was only a small piece but the dentist showed me a scan and it didn't go terribly far in. I think cavities always feel bigger with your tongue.

Turns out (if I remember correctly) it was actually mostly a filling itself that fell out that I had when I was younger. Anyhow, she used white filling and it feels excellent and secure. I was pretty fucking worried, honestly. My mouth's still a bit numb from the injection. Those needles are massive. The only thing that sucks is that I didn't get my reward at the end this time (many British will know this)...


26th February 2017, 01:06 PM
So... what's up, people?

It feels like it's been a week full o' Outlaw Star. Well I suppose it has. I spent the majority of Monday gutting and scanning a very precious art book, though the scanning part isn't finished yet. (For... science?) Then something prompted me to produce the final version of the personality test. While I thought I had already done most of that, turned out I was wrong and it took far longer than I imagined. But it's done now. While I'd like to spend this Sunday sleeping, scanning that art book—amongst other tasks—is way overdue. May as well put this mere existence of mine to some use.

There's not much else to say, really. My sister's dog escaped but was eventually found by a warden. He charged my parents nearly £200 for returning her. Sounds more like a ransom to me. Animal protection my ass. =/ Naturally my sister probably isn't going to pay a dime. She claims to have just enough to get by, despite taking her girlfriend to expensive hotels all the time. She doesn't take proper care of the dog either. Well, enough of that. Family discussion just seems to be some kind of vortex of negativity.

According to Alexa tomorrow there will be a thunderstorm and there will be rain for the rest of the week. I guess there is some good news. I'm resuming my health plan either tomorrow or Tuesday. (It depends how soon I use up my current food.) It was working really well but everything was thrown off course when I stayed in hospital for nearly a month at the end of last year. Maybe I'll post some updates on my progress. :kamina:

4th March 2017, 04:18 PM
Diet's going well. Well, sort of. I haven't been online as much as I've felt a bit ill for the past few days. It's what's supposed to happen apparently. (Nausea, headache, double vision, etc.) But around now I should start feeling better. (Not yet though, ick. :sick:) So there's not really much to say. Today I ordered a rather pricey (at least for me) air purifier that's designed to reduce odour. No matter what I try it's almost impossible to remove the litter smell Mel creates and it probably isn't so nice for visitors, so hopefully this will fix that. It'll come tomorrow and I'll test its effectiveness.

That's it for this entry.

6th March 2017, 09:50 PM
This has been the biggest activity drop in months. Thanks, Nintendo. :aishatongue: Today I went to the pharmacy for my first weekly (well, take a couple of days) meeting with the nutritionist. Turns out I'm losing quite a lot of weight, though I realise in the first week that can mostly be water weight. Anyway, point is this is working for me and I look forward to passing the first month.

That air purifier I got was an excellent purchase. Not only has it eliminated cat odours but the air is so fresh. Why didn't I get one of these earlier?

Anyhow, now my head is clear I'm ready to resume my OLS work. I do a lot of computer stuff (including so many games) on my GPD-WIN which runs Windows 10. I should make a video.


11th March 2017, 02:51 AM
There's a bit of a pattern in my life. Oftentimes not much happens at all for several months, and then KABLAMMO! Well, both of the updates relate to work. The first one less so, but I have plans.

Okay, so first of all I'm getting a pretty decent 3D printer on Sunday. I've wanted one for years. I know what you're thinking. Yes, the Outlaw Star stuff will come, possibly later on. I learnt some 3D modelling back at university, but that was over five years ago. I definitely want to familiarise myself with that again, and learn painting, but I'll also focus on functional accessories.

Secondly, I've got an old gig back. I was an app developer for a Japanese card game. My app helped people play the game by providing pronunciations for the cards and facts about many of the cards. I had to halt the development when my client wasn't able to pay me. Now he's been bought out and the new company seems to want to start funding me to continue development. This means a few things regarding my Outlaw Star work, but nothing too serious. I'll make a site update.

Overall I'm happy about all of this. :)

12th March 2017, 11:12 AM
Thats great, man! Nice that you got the old gig back. And 3D printers are awesome.

15th March 2017, 12:12 AM
That they are. I've been spending a lot of the past three days playing around with mine. Though I've done a few plastic prints (including an XGP attempt but it didn't go so well so I'll revisit it further down the line) lately I've mostly focused on metal. Specifically brass.

The first is the "griever" emblem from Final Fantasy VIII. I'm testing out a "tumbling" process that should really bring out the shine since straight out from the printer most metals are quite dull, interestingly. The "tumbling" is done by a small tumbler machine that is actually designed for making rough rocks gems but it works for this purpose when you mix these prints with small nails and have it tumble for several hours. I'll complete it tomorrow and compare. I've also gotta clean this a little.


Unfortunately I don't think this Japanese angel will fit inside the tumbler. At least now I know the length limitations. It's actually a candle holder as most of its head is hollow.


I think I'll spend much of tomorrow printing some more useful things. That might include a crossbow. :aishagrin:

16th March 2017, 04:53 AM
That turned out rather nicely. Shame that there seems to be a limit in regards to what can be put into it. Maybe you could do it piece by piece? I'm not on the up and up when it comes to 3D printing so I'm not sure if that's possible, but it could be perhaps worth trying.

16th March 2017, 05:49 PM
There's no going back...

16th March 2017, 06:36 PM
That turned out rather nicely. Shame that there seems to be a limit in regards to what can be put into it. Maybe you could do it piece by piece? I'm not on the up and up when it comes to 3D printing so I'm not sure if that's possible, but it could be perhaps worth trying.

Ah, the limitation I was talking about was what will fit in the tumbler which adds shine to metal prints.


It's hard to tell what changes have been made from a crappy iPhone static photo and this is only halfway through the process. It's just really noisy and disturbing both to myself and my poor cat. I'm thinking of moving it (tumbler, not the printer) to the kitchen. As far as the printer itself, I can print anything up to 14x14x14cm. And yes, in some cases I'll have to learn to print separate parts, but for the most part 14cm is fine for me.

Here's one for those with wild breaths...


Still gotta start shinifying (yeah, new word) this and also removing some of the back plastic created to fix any adhesive issues, but it ended up being a pain in the ass. Anyway, when everything is done this'll be a pretty cool collectable. I'd say it's nearly the size of the palm of your hand with lots of depth! (Like a real Triforce and not those crappy thin commercial ones you find.) I love swirling it about. :D

2nd April 2017, 12:33 AM
Not that much to write about, so I don't know why the hell I'm updating this. Maybe I'm just trying to remind myself of my existence in this lonely world, and my avoidance of the evil conspiracy that exists to control our every move...


In all seriousness, things are pretty mundane right now. This is probably the first time while running the community that I haven't done a thing for April Fool's. I'm just not suited to boring and easy pranks. I have to devise something bizarre or insane and possibly evil, and I haven't really been in the creative mood to do that. While I'm waiting for my final surgery, a lot of days I feel like I'm frozen in time. Each day merges into the next without much changing at all. For all I know, I could be stuck in a time loop. Now that would be some black comedy. Waiting nine years for a cure, only to be banished to something worse than the Endless Eight for eternity.

4th April 2017, 10:17 PM
I feel you.
That whole Illuminati mess is problematic to say the least.

True April Tom-foolery requires much planning and foresight indeed... which is why I didn't do any shenanigans myself. lol

Never fear tho!
If you feel some Groundhogs Day stuff goin' down, just let us know.
one way or another...

14th May 2017, 05:31 PM
Journal, it's been a while... well, not really. A month and a half isn't much, but it feels like a while since nobody else updates their bloody diaries lately! Lately I've been working on the manga a lot, but I really underestimated the amount of work that can go into this when you're working from multiple sources. I'm also way behind schedule but I intend to make up for that by releasing a couple of huge batches until I'm back on track. As far as the transcribing goes (copying words), I've typed around 10,000 words so far, which might not seem like much but when you're touch-typing with one hand and holding a book in front of you with the other it takes a while. My document got big enough to start causing Word to overload (though I was using Word 2003!) so I had to change my word processor.

Having said that, I never intended to just whine about the process because I've found it very rewarding so far. Being able to read the manga as I go along is seriously fun, and knowing what will come from this is even more enjoyable if it gets the complete manga in hundreds (thousands?) of fans' hands. In other more personal Outlaw Star news, I ordered a kickass Firecat canvas that I had to touch up as the original scan had imperfections, but I can tell this will look awesome. I'm running out of spaces though. Maybe I should start utilising my ceilings.

Weather's getting good. I finally got out my air cooler again. I'm a bit careful about opening my windows more often however, since Mel has been hyperactive lately (all sorts of acrobatics) and I fear he's becoming an escape artist. Old classmate contacted me the other day, but I already knew he wanted some computer-related favour from me. It's easy to tell this when their supposed interest in your well-being is very brief. They just show up out of the blue for no apparent reason... until there is one, and the only one. Surely I'm not the only one around here that hates this? He was very quick to ask if I still have some components I said I was going to give away nearly a year ago. I do, but I told him I sold them.

Anyone ever thought of leaving and starting life anew? I'd love to become a digital nomad in the future.

14th May 2017, 07:34 PM
Have a good friend that is great with computers, and I'm sure he feels the same way you do lol. I have asked him to help me with computer stuff plenty of times, but I don't feel as bad since im actually good friends with him, and don't have the situation you do lol.

6th June 2017, 03:55 AM
I felt something on one of my bare feet earlier. My cat sometimes sneaks around and might rub against things. For the better part of half an hour I just ignored it and knew it was Mel messing around. Afterwards Mel kept bashing into my wheelie chair. He was trying to get something underneath it. There was a large spider. I found some paper and crushed it. The fact that it was probably that crawling about on my foot makes me shudder just a little. :sick:

Finally got round to getting in touch with the Ombudsman Services. Some time ago I mentioned how my power company had charged me insane amounts of money for electricity I know I didn't use. Well, they refunded that but put it back onto my account and froze it. Turns out there was almost $6000 of other charges that are just "frozen" for now, and the amount I'm paying every month is probably more than I should be paying. Hopefully if the Ombudsmen sort this out and get me a refund on all my overcharges as well as some compensation for this whole hassle, I can work something out with the company. I've also requested a smart meter, something they should have given me long ago. I'm not sure how this will work out, but honestly I'm prepared to take it to court if they don't come up with a reasonable proposal.


9th June 2017, 06:44 PM
Why not make fwends with the spider?
Opportunity lost... lul.

18th June 2017, 01:17 AM
Can't sleep right now. It's a bit humid. I'm using my phone but I might as well post and pass a little time, for today has been quite a day.

Today I travelled across the country and received news I've been waiting nearly a decade for. When I stayed at a hospital (as some of you will know) late last year it was for a preliminary operation. It was a long one and they placed some probes in my brain. For the following few weeks I was monitored, and most importantly my brain activity. For the past several months the surgical team has assessed this data and everything else from over the years. Without evidence to support a hypothesis they wouldn't be able to operate.

Fortunately it worked out and I'm getting surgery in either March or (less likely) January. Apparently it took a lot of work since they were challenging popular opinions and my brain's behaviour has contradicted that. The main neurosurgeon produced a new hypothesis that when I have a seizure it travels from one side of my brain (temporal lobe which has the two hemispheres) to the other, then produces the symptoms. This was proven in over 90% of cases from my monitoring. In short, I'm a very good lab rat for them since it's extremely rare that a brain acts this way.

There's a 2/3 chance I'll be seizure-free, and otherwise (mostly) a significant reduction. Of course, there are risks but after all of this I'd accept the surgery no matter the risk. My life depends on it since this has been no way to live.

It's been a great day. No matter the problem, never give up. If you can't find it now there's a missing piece of the puzzle you'll find with time. When I have my op it'll only be a few months from the decade mark. Some people have had this godforsaken illness for much longer, but they're managing. It goes for everything in life. Whatever the case, don't let it defeat you.

19th June 2017, 08:41 PM
The brain is a complex and fascinating organ... and I don't understand it at all!
But it's good to hear that you're gaining a far deeper knowledge of your own head HUD than most of us will ever know.
I'll be pulling for your further progress and successes.

13th July 2017, 12:41 AM
For the past two months or so I've neglected a lot of things. I don't know why but I've been at one of my lowest points with my depression. It's something that's affected me for years but it's been manageable. Perhaps in the last month it's got worse with the surgery news, which is really weird since it's the best news I've received in several years. Perhaps self-consciously I'm focusing on the "what ifs" of surgery going wrong. It's not exactly a thought I could be talked out of happening since I'm not aware of thinking it. Last night I was ill (tonic-clonic seizure, makes me feel like I've been hit by a train with cuts and bruises to boot) so I decided to stay with family.

Now I'm back, but honestly I'm not sure if there's anything positive to add here. I guess it is a journal though.

13th July 2017, 04:12 AM
Sounds like you have more to gain than lose. If anything, the research you've contributed to will help other people in need as well. Though socially inept, would love to meet you to congratulate you after the surgery someday. Wouldn't mind hosting you and other outlaws as well. For me, focusing on my business and freedom dreams is allowing me to wake up everyday. Unlike the end of last year. Gotta get that dragonite. How do you want to ultimately live your life? I want that adventure and to travel more internationally. You may be down but an outlaw doesn't give up.

13th July 2017, 01:04 PM
Yeah, I've been told it will definitely help. :) I'd really enjoy meeting with some of the UK members here perhaps in the second half of 2018, but you're in the US, right? I'd also like to travel to America sometime. Yeah, I understand what you mean about business/freedom/dreams. Hopefully once I'm able-bodied enough I'll be able to start going abroad again and I like the idea of working somewhere else in the world. That might be a while off as I should wait until I'm "in the clear" after the surgery. I'd like to work digitally and move at least once a year. If you like the idea of travelling a lot, haven't you considered doing something like this? You're not so tied down like with a physical business. You can take it with you and I've watched various documentaries about English communities in other countries for people who do this kind of work.


Come to think of it, it's probably the nearest thing to being an outlaw in this world too. :D

14th July 2017, 10:07 PM
Yup, in the U.S. Yeah, I'd like to be a digital nomad. That's the dream!!! But I wanna be like Fred too haha. How am I supposed to finance all my adventures x.x. I encountered this teaching abroad. I can't do one thing all the time and I don't want to be on the computer for a majority of it either. I'm not much of a communicator but still like meeting people. I just want balance I guess.

19th July 2017, 05:47 PM
Welll... I might be in some trouble. Remember how I talked about my problems with my energy supplier over the past couple of years? If not, it's been very frustrating when I started getting billed crazy amounts of money which I wasn't aware of until my energy account was in debt by close to £7000, which is over $9000. (Pun unintended... :() The energy company doesn't care much. They asked for meter photos but didn't help. I admit I should have been recording my own constant readings. I should have been recording the evidence but I haven't. I still intend to record as much as I can over the coming weeks if I don't get slammed with a crazy charge again. Since August last year they've frozen that huge amount but I don't know when they'll act.

I contacted the ombudsmen about this, which is a group of people who are supposed to resolve this matter. My hope was to have those charges waived and have a new meter installed. Turns out I didn't do my full homework and they reportedly nearly always side with the suppliers (https://uk.trustpilot.com/review/www.ombudsman-services.org). They offered me a paltry £50 and a letter of apology from my supplier, yet with no resolution to remove those charges. I refused this and apparently this was a bad thing to do as it gives them more rights to take their own legal action. Regardless of whether I recorded readings myself it should be obvious to anybody that this is ludicrous. To put things into perspective, somebody I asked on an advice board about this said he does more than I do (when I explained I use my PC and watch TV daily and don't even use an oven), lives with other people and said his power usage for about three years was less than my claimed power for one month! He even asked if I run a cannabis factory. :aishalaugh: I'm collecting all the data I can now, but if I get fully charged for this... fuck knows.

19th July 2017, 10:20 PM

What on earth is going on with your power company!?

19th July 2017, 11:33 PM
It's just a power game to these companies. (Okay, that was bad.) I'm preparing myself for a week (or much longer) of headaches, but I'll keep you guys posted nonetheless!

20th July 2017, 12:19 AM
That was PUN-ishing.
But for real, it's malarky.
Corporations man, corporations.

20th July 2017, 04:00 AM
Holy moses. Isn't there a way where you can pay it back in monthly installments? I hope this doesn't land you into too much legal trouble and you two can come into an agreement. If they are as corporate as you say they are, then it sounds like it's going to be a rocky ride.

21st July 2017, 11:31 PM
Fortunately I was able to settle with the energy company. They say they got the day/night readings muddled up. However, they do think I used more than £62 per month while with them. I don't think it would be much more, so for the most part I disagree. But I could do without anymore hassle, so I agreed to pay off the £500~ remaining in my account over the next couple of years. Now I really want a smart meter so there won't be another fuck-up like this. They have an app, so being able to manage everything with my phone will be far better. It's about time technology moved forward on the energy front rather than having to squeeze into shitty tight spaces and use a tiny LCD display to get readings.

So that's that. Lately I've been working on the new Outlaw Star website. I also need to get more things scanned. Good times. :)

21st July 2017, 11:32 PM
Gross! If you do figure it out and it's all settled, i'd send ombudsmen a legit looking £7000 bill from the power company to see how they like it. xD. but, seriously, i do hope you get it figured out

26th July 2017, 05:35 PM
Well it's good to hear that things are looking up.
Stay frosty fearless leader, stay frosty.

1st August 2017, 07:47 PM

I'm looking forward to the recent Game of Thrones episode I'll watch tonight. It's been a good season so far.

2nd August 2017, 06:50 AM
Done with Facebook? Well, don't feel bad because Facebook forced me not to come back after they locked me out of my accounts after a couple of wrong password attempts. Work been overwhelming these past couple weeks and won't die down until September. Can't wait for GoT this Sunday and hoping we might see a dragon fight the Lannisters forces. Little fingers crossed. :aishagrin:

2nd August 2017, 12:40 PM
Yup, I've been wanting to free myself of Facebook for years now. It was just my business pages and of course Outlaw Star Nexus that were holding me back. That's the real shame about it. They really monopolised the whole customer relations side of business and are strangleholding a lot of business owners because of that. They're also pretty desperate once you decide to leave. Something along the lines of: "We won't delete your account (or page) yet, but if you really do want to leave after fourteen days come back, confirm that and we'll do it." No, you idiots, if I click "delete account" I want to delete my account. I realise a lot of people are emotionally charged (which I've witnessed many times) on Facebook and "delete" their accounts after a tantrum and then return the next day, but if they really make the decision to leave, let them! If anything it will teach them a lesson to not react that way.

It looks like Facebook did it for you, but sorry to hear you can't actually get back into your account to tell people about that. Yeah, I'm also anticipating that fight and it looks like the dragons will face quite the challenge in the form of giant crossbows. :aishawtf:

2nd August 2017, 07:15 PM
Not much going on today. For some reason I've been really tired, but I spent the last few hours transcribing the manga. I ordered a book stand from Amazon actually which should come on Friday. It's supposed to hold just about any book open which will make all of this a lot easier. The only bad news is that I've got pretty good at typing one-handed by doing this with nearly five hundred pages typed out so far, so it seems I'll no longer get stat boosts for that skill! I think I'll work on some Outlaw Star "renders" for a while. It's a real throwback to 2010 when I did a similar thing...

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NEVER FORGET! :cactus: That's an order /you, you pathetic Terran!

3rd August 2017, 02:13 PM
Dreamworld, we meet again...

I guess this dream is a bit more personal and not something you'd usually talk about on a forum, but meh, I don't care so much. There was this woman this time. It was an extremely surreal and vivid dream. I'm not sure how old I was in it, but I have a feeling I was my current age. However, I was with an old friend from school. Not entirely sure what we talked about but we were in a room full of people, perhaps the size of a school cafeteria. Rumours were flying as well. The woman in question caught my eye and always seemed to hang out with two friends. I can only describe her as exceptionally beautiful, perhaps angelic, with brown frizzy hair, slightly tanned skin and wore a light yellow sheath dress. She smiled and walked towards me. My friend told me that people say she likes me. For some reason when she walked towards me every few moments it was like a VHS in reverse. Every time she got close something pulled her back a little. Eventually she reached me, though.

I asked her if it's true and told her I felt I didn't meet her standards. She only told me to "wait" and then she kissed me. Kinda weird, huh? The weirder thing is, when I talked about how surreal it was I meant it. For those of us (I'm guessing most if not all) who have enjoyed a first kiss, I'm sure you remember the feeling. The heartbeat, the butterflies or "euphoria" and all that. How can you feel that in a dream? It confuses the hell out of me. It was like I was actually in another physical body. I'm pretty sure there was more in the dream, but leaving it quite late to write about it doesn't help.

Y'know, when I have dreams like that I really want to properly start learning to draw. I can honestly say that for a short while after waking I'd have been able to draw her with perfect clarity. Now it's all fuzzy.

4th August 2017, 05:39 AM
First, I'm a Ctarl-Ctarl trapped in a Terran's body get used to it. Secondly, sometimes I have "off" days the pathetic statement is a little much and thirdly, SIR, YES; SIR.:aishaeyewear:

4th August 2017, 07:23 AM
Ah, what!?! Forget what!?!?! No no!! I wont forget a thing Mr. Cactus Bastard, sir!

It's funny have those dreams can sometimes bring up past memories, isn't it? Based on someone you might've met perhaps? Maybe it's sort of a manifestation of a past love? Perhaps I'm reading into this just a tad too much. Sometimes dreams can come from memories of feelings that people are going through at the moment. If these dreams are giving you artistic ideas, I'd say get a journal and write it as soon after you come to.

5th August 2017, 05:45 PM
Odd. I almost deleted a post above. (Soft delete, so I restored it.) You've gotta be careful when you're staff on a forum. A lot of functions are very close to each other. Hopefully I won't close the forum by accident. That's totally what happened in 2012. :aishagrin: In any case...


The book stand is perfect! It'll all be much easier now. The photo also serves as a reminder that I really need to clean my workspace. There's a soda mark from a few days ago. Then again, this mouse mat only cost a few quid from China. It's not just the occasional soda spill. My cat leaves marks and fur over everything. Those damn Ctarl-Ctarl... :@ (No offence Idolo...)

Regarding the dream thing, I'm currently watching a TV show called Falling Water which is about people meeting each other in their dreams. It's quite interesting. A manifestation, eh? That's quite the theory. The only past love who slightly resembles that woman is my first girlfriend, but I was a teenager and I didn't know what love means. Though, saying that, I don't think I do now. I guess love itself is entirely subjective.

The journal suggestion is a good idea and we do have a dream thread (or maybe somebody made another which I should merge) so I'd advise others to log dreams as well. I felt I share something in common with the characters in that show as the dreams are all lucid. I recall a mention of people paying lots of money over months (even years) to be taught to dream lucidly. (Not sure if that really happens but Google suggests it might.) From what I've experienced and the brilliant levels of detail in my dreams I'd go as far as saying that everybody is an expert artist. If the brain can really generate such amazing imagery like what I've seen there's no reason why we shouldn't be able to consciously. Most of us just don't know how to connect the dots yet. As a kid I was regularly put down by my art teacher and stopped trying.

I believe I talked about this once before, but I briefly knew an autistic girl from a forum I used when I was younger. A group of us had an offline meeting. She behaved like a kid (and displayed the intelligence of one) but was still a nice person. She wanted to remain friends but I stopped using the forum as I had to focus on college and work. However, a few years ago (and this was nearly a decade after I left that forum) I found one of her sketches from a year after we met if I recall right. Despite having only met me for a few hours on a single day with no photos of me available, a year after the meeting she was able to draw me photo-realistically. It was like it was actually a black and white photo of me. I was both amazed and somewhat freaked out, but it's fascinating what some people are capable of. I think she's an autistic "savant" or something.

14th September 2017, 12:04 AM
I've been pretty inactive. The past week has been difficult and I've not felt like doing anything. A good friend of mine had become unreachable. It made me incredibly anxious because it felt like a repeat of what happened with Lloyd from this forum, also a good friend who became unreachable and then committed suicide. Fortunately my friend turned out to be fine. Honestly, the worry seemed to come from nowhere. I'm just glad that's over.

I need to get back on track with a lot of things. I'm glad I'm losing weight... twenty pounds in the last month. The forum needs some maintenance. If you can post a few times this month that will help.

14th September 2017, 05:48 AM
I don't blame you for getting anxious, especially if your friend was on radio silence for that long. Glad to hear that everything turned out well in the end. What made him unreachable? Just busy with a crap ton of shit or something?

Congrats on the weight loss! You're well on your way to getting healthier. You're well ahead of me. The past week, I only lost a whopping 1 pound. I'm cutting down the amount of sugary drinks and I try no to eat out as much since I contribute that to my weight gain more than anything.

14th September 2017, 07:49 AM
I don't have the full story, but lots of problems with family from what I've heard.

You're probably doing it more sensibly anyway, and a pound is certainly something to be proud of. I'm on a bit of a crash diet. I want to switch from it to low-carb soon after my surgery in March. Which means I'm going to have to say goodbye to sugary drinks for good. :( I used to love those! Well, at least I'll be able to eat meat a lot, and even bacon.

6th October 2017, 11:58 PM
I wish you a happy birthday, Mantis. Hope you have good one and many more.